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I'm usually not one to take any kind of compliments well. But for the past 2 weeks. I have gotten about 5 of them. Just random people telling how good I look or telling me that I have lost weight. All I can do is smile at them and say Thanks. Its a real good feeling to hear all this. For damn near complete strangers to tell/ask me about my weight loss is WONDERFUL!!! ..
I just got my behind into a size 12.. Grant it, there a bit snug. But they got pass my thighs up to my belly and closed!! Ahhhh! what a good day there..lol
  Im about 15 or so pounds away from my goal of 170. Not bad at all concidering I am 5 months post op.. The one major down fall this past month or so has been, Hair loss. Will it ever stop. I have huge clumps coming out daily. Im so afraid Im going to go bald if this keeps up. I bought myself a highlighting kit tonight. But im so scared to use it for the fear that I'll loose whatever hair I have left. I've been thinking of cutting my hair short. But im so afraid that if I do that, I'll look like a little boy. What to do what to do?!!
 Now im just rambling here. SO i'll stop now. lol.. I just wanted to give a bit of an update
 

I just went through my surgery month board. Oh Boy!! I've been complaining for what?.. I've read some posts on there, that some of the women have lost half the weight I have. And they have alot more to lose then I do... Here I am 20lbs away from my own goal. Then there are others that are still 100+lbs away from theres... I cant belive that. I thought the more weight you have to lose, the faster it comes off. Apperently not, huh... Does this mean that these ladies are not following the guidelines? or are they that low % that the surgery does not work for? Or are they just fucking up their tool??  Who knows what there story is. All I can say is, Thank goodness my tool is working for me, for now atleast......I do mess up with my food choices. I mean, I am only human. But for the most part, I do rather well. After all, im down almost 80lbs. Yay for me!! Conceded? not at all. Just proud of where I have come from...Hoping for nothing but the best in the future for me and the rest

Why is it that I've lost almost 80lbs. But I still feel and look like I still weigh 270lbs.....While I've lost my double chin. I still have no neck.. It just kinda hangs there like a trukey neck! Not a very good look for me.. And at the moment, I'm most likely bloated because of aunt flo. My stomach still looks like its sticks out now as it did 77lbs ago.. I dont regeret that I had this surgery. But I am really hating that I still look( at least in my head) the same way as I did damn near 4 months ago. I try and play off that I am this super shrinking women... When in fact, thats not the case at all. I am suppose to see my family and friends this summer( they haven't seen me since before the surgery) and I dont want to go home and have all of them looking at me like I blew this surgery.  I want to go home with my head held high, and just be like" Look at me".  Im hoping between now and june, I can feel like I can go home and BE confindent, instead of pretending I am... Is this part of the adjustment period??! Cuz if it is, I want out of it....This def does nothing to boost my ego at all....
Oh well! Till later...

Gosh! December was a pretty messed up month for me. Not only have I've been in a month long stall, and have not lost anything( still at 206lbs).
But I had to have emergency surgery to fix a perforated bowel. That happened on Dec 20th. I was at work that night for almost 3hrs. Then outta nowhere, I started getting this pain in my left side that almost right away shot up to my left shoulder. At 1st i thought I pulled a something. I stood in place thinking that this pain was going to go away. Well it didnt, it got worse. 
So the manager took me to the office to sit down and relax. Well that pain finally went away. But only to return a minute later. This pain came back with a vengence. So my manager took it upon himself to call an ambulence to come and get me. It took about 5 or so minutes for the responce team to get there. And in that time, the pain had gone and come back 2 times. So on the way to the ER The pain seemed to have went away... Well 10 minutes in the ER the pain came back BIG time... TO try and make this as short as I can. After a x ray and cat scan and many shot into the IV of morphine. I was told I had fluid in my abdominal cavity. So I was off to the OR. It turns out one of my stiches( from my wls) came out which caused this perforated bowel. 
Im still in shock that this happened over 3 months after my lap gastric bypass. But im so thankful that things were taken care of before anything worse happened to me. I was released from the hospital on Christmas eve. So atleast I was able to be with my family for the holidays. 
Im hoping now that 2008 will bring me an uneventful year...God knows I cant go through another surgery now. 3 surgeries in less than 1 year is more thn enough for me. 
So, thats all I got for now. Hopefully in the next few weeks I'll be able to post that I am finally in the 100's... So till then.

Not much as been going on with me. Im still in the low 200's. Which I can not complain about. After all, I dont think I have weighed 209( which is my current weight now) since grade school.Im just waiting for this scale to say 199lbs. Im hoping that by the end of this month, I'll get that. But for the mean time, Im refusing to hop on the scale. Its almost that time of the month, and asusual, Im eating quite a bit. So untill my cycle comes, I will not be weighing myself. 
 One good thing happened to me this week. Dh and I were driving in the car. From the corner of my eye, I could see dh looking at me. But since I was driving, I tried to pay no attention to it. Well he kept at it. So finally I told him to knock it off. He told me he couldnt help it, and how that I lost my turkey gobbler( meaning my double, or triple chin). And how I actually have a neck!! WOW.. That was great to hear..... Opps gotta cut this short. The baby is crying and I gotta see whats wrong. Till later

At 12 weeks post op, I offically weigh less then DH!! Oh Yeah!! * doing the booty shuffle** I have never once in the 12yrs we've been together wighed less then him. Hell I've always weighed way more then him. What a GREAT day. Oh, im also no longer obese. Im now just overweight. My BMI is now 29.8. Ahhhh. Good day here I tell ya.. So here are my 12 week stats

Height: 5'11
Starting weight (9/11): 270
Weight as of today (12/04): 213..
BMI( 9/11): 37.8
BMI( today): 29.8
Total weight loss so far: 57lbs.
43 lbs till I hit my own goal.

I've been reading losts of posts on the RYN board. And I keep seeing how, (what seems to me is alot) of regain. And the main cause is drinking liquor and pop. Umm, well I drink both.  Both my nut and dietitian(sp) told me that drinking diet pop counts towards my daily liquid intake. So to have 2 professionals tell me that. How can I disagree with them? And with the alcohol. My surgeon had told me to eat and drink and eat whatever I can tolerate. Uggg. To hear that I seem to fucking up my surgery, is really getting me down. Im still eating rather well. But now im scared. So I guess its time to get back to the basics at just 3 months out. But If I want to succeded at this, I have to do what I have to huh? I sure dont want to end up the funny fat girl again. I want to be the fun normal looking gal....Why do I wish I had the option to get the DS.... At times I think this surgery would have been better for me!! Oh well. Now I have to deal what was handed to me... Im just so afraid of falling, like I've done many times in the past.
 Going to try and sleep off this "poor me feeling"
Later

Im now just a lil over 11weeks post op. And Im 2 lbs away from weighing the same weight as my DH.. We've been together for damn near 12years now. And not once have I ever weighed the same let alone less then him. So this is a HUGE wow for me. Of course Dh is now telling me that he going on a diet, YEAH RIGHT!!  Im sure he couldnt manage that. 
He loves his food. 
Anywho, Life is getting better by the day for me. Im down 55lbs with 45 more lbs to lose till I hit my goal. Work is going good. Altough I did have a few nights of some bad tips. But im not going to let that get me down. Im actually loving my job. I get paid a decent amount and I get the excersise I need. Cant complain there. Ok, TTFN!!

So as my 1st Thanksgiving since surgery has come and gone. I think I did rather well with it. I did have my cravings. I mean who doesnt, right? I was the one who made pretty much all of the dinner( dh was working, and he  usually makes dinner for us)
I was tempted to nibble on anything and everything. But I kept myself in check. When dinner was all done. I made up a plate for me. Which consisted of, a slice of turkey, less then a quater of sweet potato, a teaspoon of stuffing and veggies. I ate almost everything on my plate. I did leave some sweet potatos... I did want more. But I told myself NOOOO!. 
Oh! I also had a lil taste of dh's pumpkin pie. It tasted so good . But I definitly didnt want to push my limits with that. So 1 little bite was all I needed. 
I SURVIVED!! Ahhhhhhhhh!! Now on to Christams..
 Alrighty, thats all I got for now.. Till Later.... TTFN

Ok, The movie with Stone Cold was called The Condemned. That was a waste of 2hours. I had heard it was a good movie. HA! These people lied right though there teeth. Dont waste your money with this movie, unless you get it free on your movie chanel. I am now out of 3 bucks from the rental. 
Altough, Stone Cold was Hott!! But still.