Start liquid pre-op diet on Monday, August 24th

Aug 20, 2009

I start the liquid pre-op diet on Monday and frankly, I cannot wait.  I decided a few weeks ago to do a "head trick" on myself and eat all the forbidden foods so that I get so sick of them I won't even want them anyway... so far this trick is working.  I have pigged out on Oatmeal Pies, Cherry Pies, Ice Cream, Honey Buns, Twinkies, Ding Dongs, Sodas... all that fattening, sugary stuff we cannot touch after surgery (not to mention the two weeks before) and I have to say... I feel sick, litteraly!... I have no energy and am so sugared out and I feel like I need a whole mouth full of new teeth (not that that wouldn't be a good idea anyway). 

I know, I know... some of you might say that these foods might not necessarily be forbidden... that I may not get the dumping syndrome or get sick to my stomach.  Frankly, for those of you that THIS is the reason why you don't eat them... shame on you.  Don't you realize that eating those things is one of the reasons why we were so heavy and needed to have this MAJOR surgery in the first place? 

Me?  I'm looking at September 8th 2009 as being my second birthday... a restart, a fresh start, a second chance to do what I should have done in the first place... treat my body like it needs to be treated in order for it to treat me the way I want to be treated.  I will basically be an infant when I come out of the hospital... fortunately though this time I will be in charge of what I eat and in charge of relearning the good, bad and the ugly of everything that my tastebuds touch... and even though I will be eating with a baby spoon (I wonder how many others actually do or will do this?)... I cannot blame Mommy for not feeding me correctly. 

I was pushed into this world a large girl.  Bless my Mom's heart... she had 3 kids and not one of them under ten pounds.  Myself? I weight the highest at 12 pounds 5 ounces.  Oh sure... my beloved brother John came in at just 2 ounces under me.... but I'm sure my Mom felt those extra 2 ounces never the less... considering we were all vaginal births.  (I have a lot of respect for my Mom, for this reason alone!). 

Now, am I saying that I am going to be a perfect angel reborn?  Heck no!  I may be on my second life but I am fully aware that it will be a reincarnation and that I will remember that I do like all those forbidden foods.  Not to mention that I am an emotional eater and although I am working on learning to control that... that will be a full lifetime (I guess, 2 lifetimes) worth of work. 

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