Hello fellow weight-loss-ers

Nov 22, 2016

It's time.  30 years old, 2 kids, and the heaviest weight i've ever been at.  I'm 5'9 and I usually weigh in between 270-280 lb.  I'll start with this, my blood pressure is beautiful, and i have no cholesterol issues.  That i am thankful for.  What i do have is PCOS, acid reflux, and back pain.  I have to ask for a seatbelt extender when i fly.  I can't get excited about black Friday deals because clothes shopping is nightmarish for me.  I have never been thin, though looking back at myself in highschool, i should have realized that i wasn't as fat as i always thought i was.  What i wouldn't do to be lucky enough to be my "fat" highschool self once again.  What scares me is that i'm only 30 years old and i'm just STUCK being this fat person, who is only going to get fatter and more unhealthy as age and metabolism and all of that other crap catches up with me.  I have tried so many times, with some success, to lose weight.  But it's never been more than 30lb, which creep back on because what i had to do to get there was unrealistic for my lifestyle.  Carbs are the enemy i know.  Exercise alone seems to do nothing for me.  Before i came down with a case of walking pneumonia, i was running 2.5 miles three times a week for two months and didn't lose a pound.  

Here i am. Today. 11/22.  276lb and finally to the point where i'm just desparate enough to begin to consider weight loss surgery.  I struggle with the horror stories, the regrets some people have, the health isssues and deficiencies, the people who gain everything back.  I'm right on the verge.  Do i keep plowing right along and try to lose this the old fashioned way?  Or is it really time for me to consider the alternatives?  Life as a "sick" skinny person has to be better than a depressed and tired fat person right?  Would love input/advice from any other women out there in my similar situation, age, weight range.  Cheers to you all!

M

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