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Hi all.

I am at 13 weeks today, and down 61 pounds, and 73 total.  In 3 more pounds I will be half way to my goal weight.  I can hardly belive it!
I have been working out at the gym for almost three weeks now.  didn't lose anything the first week, and the second week I lost 5.2 pounds..
I also noticed less sagging in my legs and arms since working out.. so it is really paying off. I was only working out here and there, but now that I have the worlds best gym partner, we go 6 days a week, work our tailbones off, and are seing the results!
I am flying to NY for my birthday on the 27th, and going to see an old friend that I have not seen in a long time.  I am hoping to be down another 8 by then!

So today I am three months post op.  It's amazing!  wow.. so I went and did blood work today, and will know the results next week.  I have been doing well so I can't imagine my numbers would be tooo off.
Today I weigh 262.2 pounds, which is not a loss this week, however that makes my total loss at 54.8 since surgery and 66.8 total. 
I have been going to the gym 6 days a week, and am really enjoying it, I have a great new gym partner... (Thanks MJ)!!  I couldn't make it there at 6am w/out you!
I know that is why I have not really lost any weight this week, but I can tell the difference in my pants, so I am not really upset. I would like to see some more muscle!  
I am starting to get so many compliments, it's all a little overwhelming!  but I am very happy!

hello OH'ers,

Today I am 11 Weeks post op, and this is significant to me because when I attended my informational meeting about the surgery back in July of 08, they have their support group right after the informational meeting.  Several of the post op's were there, and one had stood out for me.  She was younger (in her 30's), and was 11 weeks out and had lost 56 pounds.  I couldn't belive my ears when I heard this.  It seemed so unreal.  How could that be? 
Well now I am 11 weeks out, and although I have not lost 56 pounds I have lost 53 pounds!!!  and 65 total.  WOW!  Everyone notices, and I notice.  I fit into most of my "skinny" clothes.  I am not as fit as I was when I was 20 pounds heavier, so I still stress out that I can't fit into my skinniest clothes.  But now I see that I will get there.  Sometimes I can't imagine losing any more weight ( I have 88 pounds to go still), but I have not been at this weight in so long I can't remember, probably at least 13 years.  I know now that I can and WILL be able to achieve my goals.
I just bought my first place and have just moved, I have been there a week and I love it, but have not been to the gym in over 2 weeks now, and that is stressing me out.  I have so much to get done in the new place and try to get a work out in.  I just need to focus and go to the gym, I have my first support group meeting tonight, so I wont be able to go.  I have 2 dogs at home, so I can't just leave them for 14 hours.  So I will have to once again skip the gym.  But I have to promise myself to go on wednesday.  someone on here should hold me to that! :)
The only down side that I have seen so far is that I am VERY emotional.  way more than ever, when I was PMSing last week, I thought I was going to have to strangle someone, it wouldn't have mattered who! (TMI I know)
I am just now starting to see some loose skin, and I really want to try to prevent to much of that, even though I know it might be inevitable.  I added some pictures the other day from pre-surgery up until 1 week ago.  It's really awsome to me!  It's nice that everyone is supporting me in my journey.  Most of my friends are so proud of me.  A lot of them are proud that I am not drinking and can still go out and have fun.  It's not as easy as all that, but I still want to see my friends and be a part of their life.  So I go to the bars, and hang out, but it usually ends early now.  time is much slower without a drink in your hand. 
Two of my dear friends are moving away, which is sad, but on the bright side, I am meeting more and more people and new relationships are forming!
this journey so far has been treating me very well, and I hope it continues.  Life is wonderful!  there are bad days here and there, like when I hate everything I eat and feel frustrated, and my stomach hurts because it didn't agree with what I ate, and I just dream of going back to where I was and stuffing my face full of food and beer so I can hide all the emotions!!!
But mostly I am thrilled!  Thrilled to be alive..
Next rant will be about work, but today.. I thank God for giving me this gift!

Well I didn't meet my 40 pound goal by 2 months.  In fact I am still not there.. I am down 39.4 pounds, talk about close but not!  Oh well, I officially have 99.4 pounds to lose now.  So it is very nice to have less than 100 pounds to lose!  the weird thing is, that when I go to the gym I seem to lose less wieght.. it's odd!  Anyway, wish me luck on the next 99! :)

I am 6 weeks out today at 284.5 the last time I weiged this much, well more even I fit better into my clothes, but I was working out a lot.  I am begining to feel like this is going no where.  Not to mention I threw up 2 times this weekend, and now NOTHING sounds or tastes good.  I wouldn't eat except I know I have to.  Eating is now a chore.  I don't want to do it.  the only thing good I have eaten was at a tapas place in the castro.  It was sooo rich and yummy, and the plates are so small it's perfect!  But yu can't eat like that everyday, and I certainly am not skilled enough to cook like that.  I am an okay cook, but if I am going to eat at all I am going to have to become a chef!
The other depressing thing is my relationship is ending.  It is almost ALL  my choice, but the other preson is making it difficult and still living with me.  He is moving out in 2 weeks, but he was away for two months overseas and I felt free for the first time in almost a year, and now that he is back, I feel super depressed.  It is then that I realized it was the most toxic, depressing relationship I have ever been in.  I don't want to sound mean, but I just want him gone.  I will then begin struggling with my bills as soon as he leaves because I wont have help with half the rent.  Then to top it off I am in escrow to buy a town house and that makes life even more expensive, and am going to need help to move, paint, and carpet. 
The other really depressing thing is that I have no one to talk to.  My best friend of 15 years (well there are two best friends since JR high).  I dont really talk to anymore.  We used to talk everyday, but pretty much since my surgery we talk maybe once a week, but usualy longer.  she lives in a different town, so our daily conversations were so nice.   But two events changed all that first was when ur other best friend moved to town, and then when I had my surgery.  She even admitted she was jelous and had yelled at me on the phone, and then said she didn't.  I then have a very close friend here in Oakland, and she has to move for her job.  I don't know what I am going to do.  I really like my alone time, but I just have no one to talk to really.  There is really no one at work to talk to about anything personal.  I go days, weeks w/out a real conversation.  I do have one friend here that had WLS a month before me, and we are having dinner tonight, but I hate dumping my problems and feelings on other people.  I am usually known as a very strong person, and I know I will be just fine.  I just am having a hard time with all these new adjustments and changes in my life.  Thats all for now.. thanks for anyone out there listening!

I just bought a size 18w NYE dress... good times!

Today I am 5 weeks post op.  I lost 2 pounds this week only.  That puts me at 29 pounds lost in 5 weeks(plus 13 before surgery so 42 total).  Going to the gym 5 days a week, and have a great work out partner that keeps me going.  Hopefully the weight loss will pick up some.  I know I am still doing okay at 2 pounds a week, but I wish it were better!  Just me trying to rush things!  And one more pound will make 30 pounds lost since surgery and I will be back to my academy weight.

So today I am one month Post-Op.  I got VERY sick last night, and it felt like my intestines were being cut up.  I don't know what happened.  I threw up, and still felt like crap.  I drank my protein shake a little quick so I am not sure if that is the cause, but I still feel really crappy today.  I came back to work yesterday, so it would be really hard for me to go home sick at this point after being off work for 4 weeks. 
As for the weight loss, all the scales say something different, my scale at home says I am 290, which would be 27 pound loss, the scale at work says 294, and that would be 23, and who knows what the doctors scale says, that will be tomorrow.  However, the scale at the gym, and the bariatric center were all at least 4 pounds or more higher... CRAZY. 
I am going to go with my scale at home, since I will be using it most frequently, but keep in mind that it might be weighing me slightly under my actual weight.
Everyone can tell I am losing weight, including my pants that are not really fitting anymore.  I am hesitant to buy any clothes, because they will not fit long.  But I also have some smaller clothes in my closet that I have kept from when I was a little thinner.  Hopefully some of them will still be in style.  hahaha..
I also started soft foods. They seem to be going down very well, no real problems. 
the only problem I have is the one mentioned above, and the fact that when I first have anything be it liquid or food it always hurts a little.  I am hoping that will go away with time and healing.
So -27 pounds 4 weeks-not bad! 
the gym is great, am enjoying working out for the first time every.  It's like I don't have to kill myself about calories and expenditures.  It's just working, so I can enjoy the workout!

down 21

I finaly hit the under 300 group.. very exciting.. next milestone is under 280, which wil be the first time in 15+ years.  WLS was 11/11 almost 3 weeks, and am down 19 lbs.  feeling much better about this.  I get off pureed in one week, and a day!  I had mashed potatoes for thanksgiving, and it was okay!  would have LOVED a piece of turkey!