The significance of 11 weeks post op

Jan 27, 2009

hello OH'ers,

Today I am 11 Weeks post op, and this is significant to me because when I attended my informational meeting about the surgery back in July of 08, they have their support group right after the informational meeting.  Several of the post op's were there, and one had stood out for me.  She was younger (in her 30's), and was 11 weeks out and had lost 56 pounds.  I couldn't belive my ears when I heard this.  It seemed so unreal.  How could that be? 
Well now I am 11 weeks out, and although I have not lost 56 pounds I have lost 53 pounds!!!  and 65 total.  WOW!  Everyone notices, and I notice.  I fit into most of my "skinny" clothes.  I am not as fit as I was when I was 20 pounds heavier, so I still stress out that I can't fit into my skinniest clothes.  But now I see that I will get there.  Sometimes I can't imagine losing any more weight ( I have 88 pounds to go still), but I have not been at this weight in so long I can't remember, probably at least 13 years.  I know now that I can and WILL be able to achieve my goals.
I just bought my first place and have just moved, I have been there a week and I love it, but have not been to the gym in over 2 weeks now, and that is stressing me out.  I have so much to get done in the new place and try to get a work out in.  I just need to focus and go to the gym, I have my first support group meeting tonight, so I wont be able to go.  I have 2 dogs at home, so I can't just leave them for 14 hours.  So I will have to once again skip the gym.  But I have to promise myself to go on wednesday.  someone on here should hold me to that! :)
The only down side that I have seen so far is that I am VERY emotional.  way more than ever, when I was PMSing last week, I thought I was going to have to strangle someone, it wouldn't have mattered who! (TMI I know)
I am just now starting to see some loose skin, and I really want to try to prevent to much of that, even though I know it might be inevitable.  I added some pictures the other day from pre-surgery up until 1 week ago.  It's really awsome to me!  It's nice that everyone is supporting me in my journey.  Most of my friends are so proud of me.  A lot of them are proud that I am not drinking and can still go out and have fun.  It's not as easy as all that, but I still want to see my friends and be a part of their life.  So I go to the bars, and hang out, but it usually ends early now.  time is much slower without a drink in your hand. 
Two of my dear friends are moving away, which is sad, but on the bright side, I am meeting more and more people and new relationships are forming!
this journey so far has been treating me very well, and I hope it continues.  Life is wonderful!  there are bad days here and there, like when I hate everything I eat and feel frustrated, and my stomach hurts because it didn't agree with what I ate, and I just dream of going back to where I was and stuffing my face full of food and beer so I can hide all the emotions!!!
But mostly I am thrilled!  Thrilled to be alive..
Next rant will be about work, but today.. I thank God for giving me this gift!

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