Michelle I.
I am back where I need to be on "OH"
Jan 05, 2014
I will be having my band removed tomorrow and start a new journey with the VSG. The band was not the right tool for me and I never really "got" it. So I will keep you posted on the new journey as often as I can because I need the board more than the board needs me!
Got another fill today 1-13-10
Jan 13, 2010
Okay as sssscared as I was to weigh in and be an obvious disspointment to my surgeon...I bit the bullet and went in. Sometimes I think I forget he is really on my side. He is an awesome surgeon and all around person! He gave me my fill and just kind of smiled at me. He knows I know that I have been goofing off and he knows that I know what I need to do. He has me on liquids for 24 hours because every other fill for me has been an unfill because I just don't tolerate them well. I get a lot of acid coming out my nose at night. But never the less I have had my dinner shake and now I will stay busy with ironing for work tomorrow...putting away the YUMMY dinner I made for those that don't have an eating disorder! LOL And on another note...my prayers are with those in Haiti! May God bless them all!!
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January 3rd, 2010
Jan 02, 2010
Time to get serious. This thing is so much harder than I ever thought. The up's and down's of the fills and un-fills is very trying. Sometimes I doubt my choice of surgery. But then I think I will be paying for this for another 2 years so I better get my act together. I will get another fill next week and face the embarassment of seeing the surgeon with out any weight loss! That should motivate, right!!
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2nd un-fill 5-31-08
May 31, 2008
This is just so hard. Here it is 3 a.m. in the morning and I can't sleep because all I can think about is all 7 cc's in my band has been removed Saturday morning. My fill on Thursday went great! I ate a small supper, no problems. Then Friday I was so tight all I did was vomit. In hopes that it would pass I hung in until Saturday morning...which ended me up in the surgeons office. I was so miserable. Thank goodness he met me there! I just don't understand this band. I'm scared I might be one of the ones that it won't work for. I am so ready to change and so afraid at the same time. Why, why is food so important? What is going on inside me that makes me so weak around it. I smoked for over 20 years. When my grandson was born (even though I have 4 kids) I decided I did not want to die or carry oxygen instead of him and I quite. I used the patch (the tool) and in 3 months was free! It has been over 2 years and every once in a while I will think how good a cig. would be and then the thought quickly passes. Now if I think how good just one bite of that pizza, or donut would be....I take it. The thought over comes me until I do. If I walk away, in the back of my mind I am thinking about it......until I finally go do it!
The true test of my will power and willingness to really change is now. I know the band is empty, I know I can eat whatever I want.....I and only I can make the right decisions. Since I am a cash patient revision surgery is out of the question for the next 4 years! LOL
I think I just needed to post. I needed to vent with out the board in fear of being flamed....I must suceed and I must over come this obsession with food!
Had an unfill...this sucks 4/25
Apr 25, 2008
Well I was up to 5.25 in my band and now I am back down to 4.5. I tried to hang in there but the stress from my job and the emotions running wild in my body caused my band to become so tight I was unable to swallow saliva and started sliming even with water.. The doc thinks maybe something got real stuck. Now I am terrified because I am hungry again. I am reaching for good things I am just afraid I will reach to much! God be with me because I was able to lose 3 pounds in a week just doing liquids but I am not sure I can do it with out the restriction. Time will tell.....
About Me
VSG-1/6/14, CA
Location
34.2
BMI
Jan 11, 2008
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