MovingOn09
Request Day 1
May 26, 2009
Thanks
Me
Things Happening
Feb 18, 2009
Been practicing sipping. I have also been taking my time with meals. I am on the pre-op diet so I don't have much solids in my diet. However, I am savoring the meal replacement drinks by drinking as slow as possible.
I will get through this.
Its worth it.
A Promise To Myself
Feb 10, 2009
I take a few paces and I cannot breath. I am so out of breath that it feels as though I will pass out from lack of oxygen.
I'm not much fun with all the physical limitations that I have. Therefor, I am home and lonely while my friends are out in the world enjoying whatever it is they are doing,.
I am watching life pass me by. I ache to jump on the train and partciipate in living.
Right now and for a very long time, I merely exist.
My clothes don't fit right and they are so uncomfortable.
My feet are so swollen i cannot wear my usual shoes anymore. I have to wear big, ugly velcro mens sneakers that are 3 sizes too big.
I am so unhappy being this way.
This surgery is going to be a life saving tool for me and I intend on taking full advantage of this tool . I will never feel this miserable again due to weight.
Just a promise to myself.
I am worth the effort and it has been a long, hard road to tread, I am willing to tread it longer if it means that I will someday be free.
Things I took for granted until I lost the ability to do them
Feb 08, 2009
1. Sitting Indian Style
2. Tying shoes without struggle
3. Walking 5 feet without getting winded
4. Wearing a pair of Levi Jeans
5. Being in a car and the seatbelt fit
6. Being able to shop like a normal person not with that electronic riding cart
7. Sitting in public seating comfortably...(plane,bus, train, movie theater)
8.Doing the simplist of things in life without it feeling like a huge mountain climb.
These are the reasons I think of when I ask myself if I really want this surgery. After reading these things, the answer is always YES. For all these things I cannot do anymore, i know when I am able to do them again, I will never take them for granted again. They say everything happens for a reason. Perhaps I am morbidly obese to learn that life is precious and that I need to slow down and see the things I might otherwise overlook. Stopping to smell the roses. Lesson Learned now lets get my health back so I can LIVE and enjoy the simple things life has to offer.
Getting Situated
Feb 07, 2009
I have just joined OH a couple of days ago and it is going to take me a little bit to adjust to the set up here. For those who put in friend's requests, I finally figured out how to add you lol. One mission accomplished! Anywho, I am glad to be here and look forward to meeting new people and learning through sharing. My RNY surgery was just scheduled last week. If all goes well, I will be having my surgery on March 23rd at 10:00 a.m. Let me tell you, I thought I would be ecstatic to get a surgery date finally. I've been working towards this goal for three long years and now I am finally scheduled. Guess what? I'm not ecstatic. More like petrified. I know I am doing this to save my life but it does not make it any less frightening.
I'm just going to approach it one step at a time. I cannot dwell on the what ifs. I deserve this. It has been a long time coming and I have worked really hard to get to this point. Hard work for something this important is not that hard now that I look at it. Of course quitting smoking wasgrueling after 26 years of smoking. I did it cold turkey because my life is more important than a cigarette. If I can quit smoking (yesterday was 5 months), I can do anything.
I hope to meet new friends and learn from their stories.
I'm generally easy going. I am an avid reader. I love to laugh so comedy is definately my thing. I'm a pretty good person. I treat others like I would want to be treated. Looking forward to meeting positive people.
Well, that's all folks. Till we meet again......