Emily P.
365 days
Nov 09, 2011
One year ago today, about this time of day....I was having the first ever surgery of my lifetime. The biggest change in my lifetime. I had no fucking clue what the next year held for me.I've lost 180 lbs. Ive worked hard to regain 6 of them, mostly muscle. I did 2 a days at the gym for the first 3 months after surgery (starting at 10 days out). I didn't eat really anything solid for like 5 months, and when I did I barfed. For awhile there, I was concerned I'd never be "normal" again. Then, I turned a corner. I stopped puking. I actually felt hungry. I started eating again, and finally stopped losing weight.
Today, I eat normal, smaller healthy meals, with small snacks here and there. I do eat sugar, and drink 1 cup of coffee a day. I get up everyday @ 5:15 am, head to the gym for an hour or so and start my day. I'm bartending 3-5 days a week, which in itself is a great workout. I'm happier than I've ever been with my body. I lost my best friend. I gained a new one....and life is great. My husband, Jason has a 5'11" 146lb wife, I think he enjoys the change. He wishes I had a few more "curves". He's just sad that I have no tits. :(
Everyone says Im quieter now...... I think they are right. I don't know how to explain it.... part of me is I don't want to be noticed, or seem like I'm showing off? And part of me feels like I don't have to try hard anymore to be the loud crazy one so it distracts from my giant size..... and part of me just doesn't give a fuck anymore. Im bitter. People treat me differently. I mean, yeah it's great to be treated so well, but I realize how badly people treat fat people. It bugs me that I'm the same person, but I feel a lot of people treat me way differently. I don't know, this is a hard one. But yeah, I'm quieter now.
This surgery has been a roller coaster. I'd never take it back. I actually own AND WEAR a pair of sz 2 jeans, ALL of my work shirts are a size SMALL! I am amazed. My belly and thighs are hideous, and I have no tits. But, surgeons can fix all that....... I love how I look in clothes. I love wearing belts, and accessories, and doing my hair and make up everyday. I feel amazing.
That.is.all.the.babble.i.have.for.now.
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About Me
Southgate, MI
Location
19.5
BMI
Surgery
11/10/2010
Surgery Date
Sep 01, 2010
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