3 days away from the beginning of the rest of my life

Jul 24, 2009

My surgery date is only 3 days away and I'm not really sure what I'm feeling at this point.  I've never had any type of surgery before...the pain isn't really a concern for me either.  I'm mostly concerned about being under anesthesia for the first time and how I will feel in the months to come.  I've always been bubbly and very outgoing and had a great self-esteem.  Even at 396 lbs.  I can honestly say I'm comfortable in my skin.  I wouldn't be doing this if I wasn't having health concerns and if I didn't want children.  I fear that I'm gonna see how differently I'm treated and that it's going to make me bitter.  I worry that an abundance of sagging skin will steal my confidence.  I think all my thoughts are normal ones that everyone going through this thinks at some point.  I also know that everything will work out fine and the one thing I can say is that I have a man that loves me regardless.  The wedding went off without a hitch last Saturday and the first week of marriage has been great thus far.   I've finished all my pre-op testing this week and I have to be at the hospital at 1:30pm on the 28th...my surgery is scheduled for 3:30pm but could begin early depending on if they are ahead or behind schedule.  I was in the hospital from July 6th to July 11th due to a tachycardia flare-up...when I was discharged I weighed a whopping 417lbs which is my highest weight ever...I weighed 390 at my consult on 4/22....as of today though I am back down to 396 and hoping to drop a couple of more pounds in the next couple of days...I start the clear liquids Monday morning...yuck, but it'll all be worth it...I've never been thin and I'm anxious to see how the new me looks!

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Grand Prairie, TX
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07/28/2009
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Apr 29, 2009
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