mrstwp
Hi
well, I decided to write my story, as I had surgery on 9/24/07
I have battled weight all my life, from as far back as I can remember. I was a "chubby" girl, say from 7-8 years old. I remember my mother dieting, and I would do that with her, and go excercising with all the other old ladies.
I guess I never felt like I fit in, never looked "good enough". Now, when I look at pic's of when I was younger, I WISH I still looked like that! Even when I was thin, I felt fat. I remember always feeling bigger than everyone else, weighing 100lbs in 5th grade-if you saw my picture, it was horrible! fat cheeks, ugh! disgusting. but I didn't know any better.
I used to come home, and make those "stir and frost cakes"the kind that you mix in the pan cook the frost? nothing like a warm cake out of the oven with a glass of milk. Food was a comfort, a friend, and just plain tasted good.
As I got to be a teen, I probably looked normal, but inside, I still felt fat. I had a friend who's family used to make fun of her all the time-call her "thunder thighs" then push us to eat! talk about mixed messages! I thought, if they think that about her, what did they think about me?
This could get pretty long, but to edit this, I am now 43, highest weight was 233lbs at 5'4".
Aftery a total hysterectomy (1999), I put on a lot of weight. I have battled depression, memories of childhood sexual abuse (which I am sure contirbuted to eating) divorce, remarriage, battles with children/stepchildren. Then this year, the most devastating, the loss of my mother to brain cancer. From Feb 13 to Apr 16, I had the privilege of taking care of my mother until she passed away into the loving arms of Jesus.
So now I start my "new normal" life after Lap-Band surgery.
Monday, I was so nervous! but I made it thru. Tues was the hardest day-you know, when they tell you to go of caffiene, LISTEN TO THEM!! I had the WORST headache that lasted till yesterday-and I lay there thinking-what did I do? I made a big mistake! However, after talking to the medical staff at the surgeons office, crushing my migraine meds, all was well with my head!
Today, learned NOT to eat pudding first thing in the morning! I still feel like I have a rock stuck in my chest. But the bariatric nurse said I should be fine. Note to self-DON'T DO THAT AGAIN!
I will post a before pic soon-I have some (bad) good ones! can't wait to see the afters!
I sign everything this way-I hope all who read it will know what it means.
Mrstwp
ITZLGD
(Romans 8:28)
ps-I have a FABULOUS husband supporting me, and I am so blessed! thanks P!
