It's me again Bertha =)

Dec 21, 2008

I haven't posted on here in awhile so I wanted to do an update...
I'm 7 weeks out and I'm doing OK I suppose. As of last week I'd lost 34# since surgery. Since my pre-op diet (Aug. 9th) 71#. I bought me a bike, to which I haven't owned since I was like 13yo, LOL. I've been riding at least 3 days per week for 1 hour to 2 1/2 hours. I've been plugging in TheDailyPlate everything that passes my lips and with me riding the bike I've been keeping a deficit of KCALS on the days I ride. I've been trying to make the best choices as far as food/drink is concerned. BUT late at night I'm still having problems with munching. Although all day long I'm a good girl and I eat when and what I'm supposed to, as soon as the sun goes down, it's on like hambone!!! During these times I really try hard to keep to the high protein stuff, but I get so tired of all the protein. I have ate a salad once and it was so good! I also open a can of green beans and nuke'm and if I get the munchies I'll eat 1/4 cup of those. Green beans have barely anything in them so they're OK to eat. I still have the mind set as to what the hell have I done to myself. I'll be eating something that tastes so good and really want just a serving size at least of it but can't get more than a few bites of pure protein in at a time. Usually I'll eat about every 2 hours or so, because unlike some ppl I still get hungry but because I can only eat so much at a time I'm getting hungry not too long after I eat. I do not drink before, during or after meals but the hunger still comes back within a few hours. I love crunchy things, but in order to have anything crunchy I have to eat things that aren't really that good for me. And yes,,,I have ate things I knew I wasn't supposed to. My son brought home some chocolate covered cherries, and my bf a almond snicker bar =( Well hell of course I'm gonna want some. But I've limited myself to 1 bite and let it go after that. If they just wouldn't bring the shit home I wouldn't be bothered by it! My bf cooked hot wings knowing I have a vise for them. I ate hot wings for 2 days! Although they do have some decent protein they're deep fried so here we go with the fat! Needless to say if I would have went strictly by what everybody says your supposed to eat I probably would've lost more than I have. I went to MX so I have no NUT to ask what are the limits, choices, etc. So I come here but when I ask here about eating certain things I get flamed about it...I'm doing the best I can considering...I'm glad I had the surgery cause I wouldn't be at the weight I am without it. I'm glad I had the surgery because if I hadn't I would be eating the paint off the walls. But sometimes still I get those feelings that with all the money I put into this surgery I should be following the rules and changing eating habits and the relationship that I've had with food all my life or all of this will be for nothing. The night time munchies are my down fall I know this. Not having the will pwer to tell my family and be firm about it to keep that junk shit out'a my house...These are just a few...But I am proud of the fact that I'm riding my bike and I am consciously trying to make better food choices for myself. The bf keeps bitching about how much money just my food costs in compare to the family as a whole. But damn, he knew this wasn't gonna be a cheap ride! I still have problems getting in all my water and all my protein in the same day. One day I'm able to get in all the fluids and the next day I get in all the protein but not all my fluids. I have noticed though that IF I can/could do both, and I have a couple of days, I do lose better and more at a time. I try to change things up so as to not let my body go into starvation mode. I did have a stall for about a week early out, but as soon as I upped the intake it broke easily and I started going down again. I think this is the clue...to get it all in, in the same day in order to lose. I'll keep trying and I'll keep updating this thing from time to time. I have to remind myself of this thing because I get so busy with trying to find work, riding my bike, and thinking about what I'm eating,,,it's hard to remember it all, LMAO...Anyway...till next time =)

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