3 mos out...

Feb 06, 2009

I haven't been around here for awhile. I started college again trying to Bridge over to get my RN and between going to classes, studin', work, and family I just haven't had the time to get on here to blog anything. So here's an update on the surgery stuffs =)

When I started classes, I also stopped working out of anykind. I do try to park just as far away from the school as possible so I can get that extra step in, but that's it. With the weather being as cold as it is I really don't wanna get out there and do anything, LOL. Maybe when it warms up some I'll try and fit it in. Right now I'm freezing!!!!!!!! I've always been the one in the room that's sitting there sweating in 30 degree weather. Now it can be 70 in my house and I got on a sweat suit and coat and still bitching I'm cold! LOL Go figure!
I can eat whatever I please, nothing makes me sick or nauseous. I probably could've lost more by now, but because of the way I'm eating I really don't try to deprive myself of what I want. If I want a Cappichino, I buy it...might make 3 servings out'a it...but I still buy it, etc. I still have good restriction, can't eat but a little bit and I'm done. There are days I think I could eat the paint off the walls but others I don't wanna eat nothing! I've been taking the Nexium I bought while in MX, only 1 time per day. But I take my last one today so I'm going to WalMart to buy some OTC PPI and I'm gonna start taking it 2 times per day. Because I feel hungry alot more than I should. I thought that maybe after my body adjusted to the surgery and things that the hunger would stop or slow down but it hasn't. Everybody says to make sure you take your PPI and if you have to, to take 2. So that's what I'm fixing to start doing and I'll blog here and state whether it worked or not.
Here the other day I saw a friend of mine I went to LPN school with and she's had the RNY and she said I looked so good! It made me feel good until she got on my ass for not eating. She said if I wanted a protein shake for breakfast that was fine but at lunch and supper I needed to eat something to make my tummy get used to digesting food readily. I know all this but that day I just didn't feel like food! After I eat anything I feel full and sometimes about 15 mins or so after I'm done I feel sooooooooooo bad! Not sick bad, just BAD! Like let me go take a power nap bad or something...So I have my days where I just don't wanna go through all that just to get a bite in.
Everybody talks about how much energy they have and all this and that and I have NONE....I take my vitamins and all that it's just sometimes it feels like I have to really put effort into just making myself move from one room to the other! Dunno...I wanna sleep alot too, all this might be from me starting classes again and being mentally exhausted.
I started this on Aug. 9th and lost 37# on my own till sugery day Nov. 1st. and since then I've lost 62# for a GRAND total of 99# !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've lost a small person here LMAO I feel really good sometimes as far as being able to do stuff I used to not be able to. Tie my shoes, walk a distance without being out'a breath, ya'll know the drill LOL. I wish I could have done this years ago!
Needing some clothes here though! I went the other day to the Salvation Army and they only had one pair of capris that I could fit into and they said they were 18's but then I went to WalMart just to try on jeans to see what true size I was and I could fit into a 22 but it was tight, but the 24 was a little lose for my taste...So I decided to put'm back and wait a little longer to see if I could just get the 22's and be done with it. No since in buying 24's and only wear them for a month, then have to get rid of them too. I'm having a problem with the crotches on pants! LMAO All the clothes I have and try on..the crotch wants to hang between my knees! WTF!? I don't wanna wear something that either makes me look like a got a turd in the back or a dick in the front! Come on now! LMAO I think the tag on the capris was messed up or something...But it did put a smile on my face when they fit and the tag said 18 LMAO!!!!!!! I'm freezing and have no clothes! I've been wearing the same 2 pair of pants to school for 2 weeks now! Damn, I need to go to Jacksonville I guess, they got'a BIG Salvation Army down there. Maybe I could get something then....I think that's my biggest bitch about all this is not having anything that looks descent to wear, LMAO
O and one more thing before I go...It is hard to fix food for your family, that they'll eat at least, and you be able to eat too! Everything, or most of everything, my family wants to eat is bad for ME. So alot of the times I'll do a protien shake and be done with it. That's still a very hard part of all this too me. When I was pre-op and I couldn't eat nothing, just drink everything, and they were in here eating the paint off the walls and it was smelling so damn good. (Chicken n Rice, Rice n Beans w/corn bread, spagetti w/ Garlic bread, etc.) I used to cry because I was hungry too! Well that hasn't changed! I still feel depressed when they're all in here eating whatever and it's smelling good and I'm hungry and KNOW I can't eat that stuff....I just leave the room, go sit by myself and cry! I know it's for my own good that I don't eat those things anymore! But it still bothers me cause I'm hungry too! Why didn't Ralph buy anything I could eat if he knew he was gonna be cooking this shit for supper?! Is my thinking, anyways! I feel left out alot, at least from meal time =(
Well, that's been me here lately.....Guess I'll try to update this thing again when I find the time........Take care to whomever reads this and Good luck & GOD bless us all on our own journeys....

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