Again, It has been a while

Apr 13, 2010

I noticed that I have not updated my blog in a while. At first the reason was because my keyboard was broken and it was more trouble than it was worth. The keyboard has been fixed though and I have no excuse. I just updated my ticker and to date I have lost 143 pounds. I have been very open recently about my surgery. Initially I told no one and some of my family (most of them) still don't know. The other day I shared my journey with some of my co-workers and showed them the before pictures. They did not even recognize me, some of them said "Who is that?". Now these are all nurses and of course they told me about all the bad cases that they have seen. I pointed out to them the fact that as nurses you are only going to see the sick, the ones with issues. The happy people like me don't spend much time in the hospital, unless of course you work there like I do. So, I have gotten to the point where I feel successful, not afraid of failure and I don't mind sharing. I am courageous enough to stand up for what I believe and the decisions that I made for myself when anyone challenges why I did what I did. Unless you lived it, you have no idea what it feels like every day of your life. So, now I just don't care what people think! I did what I had to do for me and I would do it again and again. I am not at my goal but 143 pounds is an amazing accomplishment. I will be honest and admit that I still see the fat girl in the mirror at times. Sometimes I don't and I never know what I will see from day to day. I am working to lose an additional 40-45 pounds but this is me, the surgery has done what it was meant to do and the rest is on me. When I tell people that I am trying to lose that 40-45 pounds they look at me like I am crazy but I am still considered obese, I just want to have a normal BMI and that is what my goal is based on. I started my journey wearing 3x tops and bottoms, 30-32 tops, 26-28 bottoms. Now I am wearing L-XL tops and 14-16 bottoms. There are some things that I could do differently to help the process along and I am working on making those changes. It is a daily struggle. All in all, I am happier then I have ever been. I love my life although money is still an issue and likely will be for the next few years, everything else is going great. I am happy and that is all that matters.
That's all for now...

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Chicago, IL
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45.5
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RNY
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11/12/2008
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Feb 27, 2007
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