1 month down --

Feb 17, 2009

and a lifetime to go???  The first month has been pretty uneventful . . . if you can call having your britches fall off of you uneventful!  When I look at the progress I've made this first month, I'm amazed.  I've managed to get my diabetes under control, my cholesteral under control and found collar bones and re-learned how to cross my legs!  All of this with very little negative results from the eating plan.  So far, no pain, no dumping and no serious complications/events. I have followed the instructions of the medical professionals pretty much to the letter, which is how I accredit the success.  I've progressed from liquid to full liquids to "smashed" foods (or soft solids).  I still eat a very small quantity but have managed to create some variety to the flavors I'm taking in and although I'd welcome something crunchy, I appreciate what I am able to eat safely.  I'm starting to notice that I don't get "pleasure" from food any longer.  Its a really strange experience -- not bad, just different.  I've also realized that I've always eaten from the neck up -- all about the seeing, smelling, tasting, chewing and swallowing.  I don't think I've ever experienced eating thinking about chewing to the correct texture and then how it feels in my tummy.  Occasionally, I find myself thinking about what I'm going to eat . . . and then I realize how much work it is for no more than I'm going to eat and no longer than its going to take . . . and it kind of looses something experience wise.  
     This past weekend I experienced a light-headed, almost dizzy sensation off and on.  I increased my protein by adding in a protein shake and worked a little more on getting in my fluids and it seemed to go away. I guess you SHOULD believe most of what you read on these boards! ! !  
     Despite the transition with the food "experience" and feelings about eating, I keep being drawn toward looking forward. I look forward to losing more weight, getting more active, developing a routine with my new treadmill (I bought one this weekend), and little things . . . playing with Nicole in April when I go to visit, being able to fasten my seatbelt on the flight to Albuquerque in 2 weeks, maybe not feeling ashamed to get in a bathing suit and swimming this summer(?) and seeing just how far this trip is going to take me!  Essayons! 

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