New goal! Dream number...

Sep 12, 2012

I got a new goal, I need something to fixate on in this weight-loss journey. Maintaining is boring to me right now, don't get me wrong gaining is no great adventure, the opposite of fun. However, I want to lose again and see a new low number. I don't have to stay there, I'm just curious to see what those extra few lbs. would do for my stomach, hopefully flatten it some more, it's pretty flat I must admit, minus the excess skin. uuuugggghhhh. Speaking of that, it's so frustrating b/c I want kids soon, so a tummy tuck is out of the question for the next several years. I'm not gonna get a tuck and possibly become pregnant in the next year or two...

Oh yeah, back to the new goal. It's 137, yes I want to weigh 137, it's the number I put on my new license and it's my birthday backwards. plus it's a realistic number for me I think. Although, yesterday I worked out for 3 hours, ate low calories and only lost 0.2 this am. So, I must be retaining water or something or I gained the muscle that fast. Possible w/ my genes which can be frustrating sometimes. I know people who have lifted for years and are nowhere near the muscle tone I see in my body. Genes. However, I'm not willing to let my muscles become slack just to lose some lbs. I know there's a solution out there for me. Also, 2's fit me pretty well, except for the muffin-top of excess skin. And I refuse to walk around w/ the extra skin just sitting there. What else? Attitudes of SOME women I've run into lately...

OK. When I was larger, people, especially women for the most part were nice to me or didn't pay me any mind. Fast forward to present day, that is not the case. I'm very much noticed and in too many cases it's not nice, I'm getting the stank eye from SOME females. It's weird to me, b/c I'm a girls' girl. And now, I find myself still wanting to be that open person chatting up and making quick associates of new women I meet like I always have. But, I'm finding there's no warm reception coming back my way in a lot of cases. I was not prepared for that, men are easy. Let me cut this,  I could talk too long on this subject.   137, here I come.

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