My story is not anything special.  I am a 36 year old female with no children.  I am engaged and will be married in October 2009. I have always been overweight.  I was raised by a single mother who told me how cute I was almost everyday of my life.  (That is so embarrassing after a certain age but what I wouldn't give to have my Momma back now).  Most of my adult life I have fluctuated between sizes 18/20 to 22/24.  I did wear a size 14/16 for a very short period of time after almost a year of exercising regularly and taking very expensive supplements (over $200.00 a month).  It seems like I have tried every diet plan and taken some of everything on the market that is suppose to promote weight loss.  Some things worked and some things didn't but eventually I always gained the weight back plus more.  I have always dated guys who "liked big girls" so my weight was never I problem in relationships unless I made it an issue.  For the most part I have had a good life and I really can't complain.  THANK YOU JESUS AND MOMMA!!!

I love to shop and have always secretly envied people who could go anywhere and buy a nice outfit.  But Macy's, Lane Bryant, Ashley Stewart, and Lord & Taylor are my favorite stores and I can dress with the best of them -- most times better.  I do not have any embarrassing stories to tell about something I could not do because I was too fat.  I have always been able to fit in rides at the amusement park (although I have not gone to one in at least 5 years), I have gone para-sailing and snorkeling, and the seat belt always fits on the airplane (but I did need an extender for the 1st time last year).  And if somebody tried to treat me differently because of my weight  they got put in there place........real fast.........period. 

I have a girlfriend that I have known since 1st grade.  She was always tall and slim but after 2 children and numerous bouts with depression, she became morbidly obese.  She had an successful RNY about 4 years ago with no complications at all.  I am so proud of her.  Shortly after her surgery she tried to push me toward WLS but I said "No thanks  -- I didn't pay anybody to get fat and I'm not paying anybody it get skinny."  Also the thought of the excess skin scared the shit out of me.  At the time I thought I am more comfortable with my fat body with the extra rolls than I would be with a slimmer body with the sagging skin.  Plus I really didn't see myself as that big.  People would always tell me "you ain't really that big".  But those were the same people who had known me at least since high school and probably just couldn't picture me any other way. 

So if I'm happy with myself then why am I having surgery????  Well, age is catching up with the old girl and I have to do something about it before it's too late.  About 2 years ago my feet started to swell all the time from the excess weight, my blood pressure is out of control and I'm scared of dying young.  My mother died nearly 6 years ago of heart disease at only 60 years old.  She was overweight, a smoker, a drinker and inactive (no disrespect because she was also the best mother in the world to me but those are just the facts).  She had high blood pressure and blot clots which caused her to lose sight in one eye about 5 years before she died.  She was also taking heart medication, which I did not find out about until she was gone.  Recently, the 250 lb. body I was used to has put on an additional 50 lbs. and I am miserable.  My feet, legs and knees are hurting more often and the size 22/24s are too damn tight.  I thought about WLS for about a year and made a decision in the fall of 2008 to go for it.  During open season, I researched and compared a lot of different plans and I changed my health insurance to a carrier that would pay for it with the least amount of hassle and I am looking forward to having my surgery on June 11, 2009. 

About Me
33.3
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RNY
Surgery
06/11/2009
Surgery Date
Apr 14, 2009
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