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it has been a little ofver 2 years since my lapband. I have been through some storms to say the least. I haven't done all that I should have or should be doing. However, I am moving forward believing that I can win... I was doing so well and then life hit me and kept hitting me.. No excuses just straight truth.. I am rededicating myself and being fully committed to my health physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I will succeed in this battle of obesity.. How can I continue to help others when I am a mess? So, I have been working on ME. I have moved to a new state physically and mentally.. I am worth it... Okay,  gotta get moving... see you soon and I will post pics soon.

Well it is a little late, but better late than never. Anyway tried to upload some pics but that didnt go according to plan. For some reason every time I try and update my ticker or add photos there is a problem... Ugggh. Anyway, weightloss is going good. Feeling good from my head to my shoes, I know where I am going and I know what to do. I got a new attitude. Think that sums it up for me.

I feel so refreshed... The scale is finally moving again after 6wks of nothing. during the 6 wks I lost only 1lb. I know horrible right. In any event I did lose inches. My bust size decreased from a 44 to a 40 so hey I am excited. Anyway during the last week I have lost 8lbs. It seemed so weird to have lost nothing and then get on the scale and like 8lbs. Yay me!!! Anyway I checked on 3 different scales before I believed it was accurate. LOL!. Anyway, I feel great! I havent had alot of attention in the last few years from men, but my God you would think I just moved to a new city because they are on me like vultures.. that part is kinda weird but you know what I can handle a little attention!!. Well I am hoping all the preops and postops are doing well. I have been on this kick of putting my best foot forward and trying to motivate others to become healthier for themselves because we matter!! So motivate, encourage, inspire, support, believe in someone today!!

I am so grateful!!

Okay today is 1/5/10 and I feel absolutely fabulous!! I had been down in the dumps with family issues for the last few months well since about a week after surgery. I really hadnt had time to focus on me and on this great tool I have been blessed to recieve. All in all though I am a survior and I feel fabulous!!! Though things have been thrown at me I fell a few times I am still standing.  So I am at the point where today I am focusing on me first not being selfish, but if I dont concentrate on me then I am no use for anyone else. Today I plan on walking 4miles and going to take a stab and jab at this billy blanks dvd Lawd help me please!!! I hope and pray that I am on the right track as I refuse to weigh myself until my next appt. I have been making better food choices and have learned to slow the heck down while eating or get a traffic ticket so to speak!! that ticket is no joke either. So chew chew chew and chew and chew for me!!! I love my tool and now that things are running like they should be (knock Knock on wood) I am running trying to see what my end will be.

Oh yea on another note my sister has decided that she wants her daughter back. That is all fine and dandy but before she goes back my sister needs and I expect some anger management, parenting skills, and counseling sessions to take place. I was angry that after she caused some much havoc and chaos in my household and now expects everything to go back to the way it was. But I have prayed and just say you know what in the best interest of the child get some help and be consistent with getting that help. We shall see.

Love Peace and Unspeakable JOY!!!

Well I finally started posting some pics on OH havent taken any in the last couple weeks. I just wanted to add some to show how I am changing what this body of mine looks like.

I have made a new point to hold myself accountable and to do the very best I can everyday. I think the weightloss is going good, but I think it could be going great. In any event it is going so for that I am grateful. I know that all things are possible if I have faith and I put that faith in action, because FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD!! So I am being like Nike and just doing it. I have a little challenge going on with another OH'er to keep us motivating and to have some bragging rights. I believe that we can push each other with this little tatic we are testing. Anyway, I hope all had a wonderful and blessed Christmas and if I dont talk with you again this year Please have a Happy, Blessed, Joyous, Peaceful and Prosperous New Year. Smooches everyone.

Oh yeah I have found that this band of mine has different personalities (lol) This chic acts like she dont want me to live sometimes. So I have discovered for breakfast I must have a protein shake no food items in the am. Not eggs or nothing. But you know what it will definitely help to get my required protein  intake. So, I am just going to keep on loving my tool despite what others say about it. I LOVE MY BAND AND ALL HER PERSONALITIES. LOL  Muuuuah! Good night

Okay I had my 2nd adjustment on yesterday. I was hardheaded for real and ended up finding out what foamies are uuuuggghhh. So, as of yesterday I am staying on the up and up and not being disobiedent. I was a little disappointed because I dropped 6lbs. I have to really get it together and try my best to better. I walked yesterday alot farther than I ever have so I am glad for that. I will attempt to do taebo this weekend and continue to walk daily, a little farther each day and with an increased speed. I know it could have been worse and I could have gained instead of losing 6lbs. I should be grateful because I have never been able to lose like this continually. So I am going to be grateful and enjoy the weightloss even if it is a bit slow.

Love Peace and blessings

Tenisha

Well today marks 11 weeks. not sure what my weight is as I am not getting on the scale until I go to the dr on 12/15/09. My clothes are definitely to big. My friend purchased a pair of pants for me 3 weeks ago and they were a size 18. I am still wearing my old clothes right now and wearing belts to hold the pants up. I look a mess in my old clothes so I will be shopping reallllllll soooon... to get a few pairs of pants in my current size. I want to try on a pair of 16 jeans so bad but I am afraid that these thighs will prevent me from getting in them. My thighs are still huge in my opinion. Well that is all for now.
Be blessed this holiday season. Stay safe and continue on shedding those pounds I know I will.

Tenisha

Okay today makes 5 weeks out and my appetite is back full blast! Even with my appetite being back I have trouble trouble i mean trouble eating certain foods. So needless to say certain things have been removed from my diet from now on. Things are progressing slowly. So much is going on that I have not walked this week. Today I dont care what happens my butt is hitting the pavement and getting it done. I was doing the couch 2 5k  program but I will restart that prayerfully next week.

My family grew by 1 on Saturday my sister decided that she no longer wanted her 11yr old daughter and brought her to me. The house is a little crazy because I just moved into a smaller place only 2 bdrms. My son is not liking the fact that he has to share. Trying to get this child onto my insurance this week was meet w/roadblocks because I dont have something from the court system. In the mean time between time my sister has not given me the child's meds breathing machine or anything! I feel so overwhelmed right now but I was able to get her enrolled in school w/the notarized paper her mom gave me. Thank God for the small things. I've missed a couple days of work trying to get her in school and get uniform tops. I have been comfort eating because I am stressed to know end. Already couldnt sleep at night so you know it is worse now.

I know that God has worked everything out and nothing happens by chance. Even though I can't hear his voice I am trusting his plan. I know he will bring us through and we continue to bless each of us. I pray that God removes the hositlity I have with my sister I really do. Her thing is she is struggling and cant see her way out. Well I am struggling as well as most ppl are, I now have someone else to feed, clothe and provide for but I am trusting God. It makes me so angry that now she is home free no obligations but herself and still wont send the meds and stuff. Sorry to vent like this but I am so full... But today I am getting back on track. I dont have to listen to her yell and scream about this that and the other Shay is safe and loved.  oh yea and my niece will be 12 on 11/16 what a birthday present to hear your mom say I dont want you anymore. Lord have mercy on my sister please. I gotta get this girl in some counseling but w/o insurance it is looking grim. I applied for medicaid dont know if she will qualify a friend walked me through it the app was so freaking long. Yall please pray for not just the kids and I but my sister as well.
Thank God trouble dont last always!!

Weightloss is back on track today will be a great day in Jesus name. Please pray for us.

Okay I am waking up between2-3 every morning no matter what time I go to sleep. Not sure what is up with this but I need and want some good sleep. I have tried tylenol pm (doesnt work). I just dont know what to do. Lord help me because I am so cranky from lack of sleep. This is so not me. Need suggestions please.

As of today I am 3 weeks out. Not much has changed except I am eating soft foods now and this time next week will go to regular foods. Yay !!! I go for my first fill nov 10th I was like what huh.But it is what it is..  I will keep you posted.


Tenisha