Michele T.
6-month Surgiversary
May 24, 2010
What can I say about this last month? It has been a doozy of a month. It has been a month of self-discovery and a time for making some tough decisions.Let's start with the weight. For the month, I stayed the same overall, 242 lbs, 77 lbs lost (stayed the same, lost 3 lbs all at once, and then gained 3 lbs back all at once this past weekend).
Now let's discuss why my weight loss stalled out. First, I will say that for the most part it was a conscious decision. I realized that I had accomplished the goals I had when I set out: I am at a size 18 instead of 28, am able to do all of the things I want to do, am healthier (I went off all of my medications over the last 2 months - including anti-depressants), and I do not have all the restrictions that come with being so obese (not being able to fit places or do things). So, I have a decision to make about if I want to continue to lose more. The last month I ate what I wanted to eat when I wanted to eat it and never felt for 1 second like I was deprived or watching my weight while I considered whether I want to stay the same or continue to lose. Obviously, it would be super, super easy to stay this weight with my smaller stomach. And while I would love to look like a super model, that is not the reason I did this, and I am at an age where that is not as important to me as stopping at a weight I can maintain without too much sacrifice - much better to stop now, than lose another 75 lbs and gain it back. My bariatric therapist is really helping me work through where I want to be and what I want to do with my weight to be happy. I ultimately decided that what I am not happy with is the shape I am in. I am having a pool put in right now, and I am so excited! I think this step is every bit as important as the surgery I had. I love to swim and know I will use the pool all of the time.
I also found out that you can stop this weight loss if you do not try to continue to lose weight. It has seemed like a miracle in months past, but now I know that I am in control of how far I go. It has been a very busy month for me working full-time and taking care of my granddaughter while her mother took on a second job, and I haven't been able to give my weight the attention I have in past months. I haven't taken care of myself like I should have and it shows.
So, these are my thoughts: First, Congrats to me on accomplishing all of my main goals!!!
Second, I am going to make absolutely, positively sure I don't gain any weight back (gaining the 3 lbs back this weekend scared the hell out of me)! I am going to make sure I eat protein first, and I am going to start exercising to get in better shape. And we will see what happens with the lbs. But, honest-to-god, other than refusing to gain any back and making sure that I never gain any back, I don't really care where the lbs end up, but I do want to be stronger and in better shape (and if I lose a few lbs and/or a size or 2 so much the better). However, I did buy a size too small dress for a cruise in August so I guess I think I am going to lose another size. LOL
I know for all of you die-hard fanatics out there, this post has to be perplexing. But for me, this journey is all about balance, and finding that perfect balance of happiness, health, activity and living life without feeling like I am sacrificing too much. It is not about having a perfect bmi or wearing a perfect size. To balance!!!
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About Me
Houston, TX
Location
32.9
BMI
Surgery
11/24/2009
Surgery Date
Oct 28, 2009
Member Since
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