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It is amazing to me how many people are willing to go under the knife for a life altering surgery without doing any research!!!!!! I went to my Kaiser Orientation today and I was so agravated by all the people who seemed extremely clueless about bariatric surgery.Do people really expect to go to a 2 hour orientation or  an hour long seminar and learn everything they need to know and be able to make an informed decision??????? To top that off they are listening to this doctor  who is NOT a bariatric surgeon and taking him for everything that he is saying..... don't get me wrong he is the director of the program and seems very knowledgeble but he isn't even a surgeon and of course he represents kaiser ( aka the insurance company) so he is going to steer patients the direction the insurance company prefers. When I asked if kaiser does the duodenal switch he said no which I know is a lie.. of course I'm sure most of the people didn't even know what a duodenal switch was let alone that he WAS NOT TELLING THE TRUTH! He was also down playing the lapband. It's not my choice of surgery but if it was he would have scared me off! he even told us that Kaiser only want sthe lapband to be  in place for like 3-4 years and then REMOVED?????? I was just flabergasted.........THEN when it's Q&A time in the orientation everyone starts asking personal questions that deal specifically with their circumstance...um don't people know that an orientation with over 100 people present is not the time to talk about your cancer or your previous diseases and infections????? One lady even asked the doctor ( again I point out he isnt a surgeon) what surgery he would choose for her??? huh???? What I wanted to say was, " Do some research lady! Ask around.... get on some websites like obesity help.....take those questions to a bariatric surgeon... go to a bariatric surgery seminar!"....

Now I hope you all know I'm just venting As far as I am concerned today was just one step closer to my ultimate goal. I was just shocked how lightly people take this....

I'm soooo ready to get this crap started!!! they waiting is horrible. I am sure some of you can understand how I feel.  At this point I am not sure who my suirgeon will be, or were I will have it done but I am confident I will have this surgery this year... soon this year. I am finally going to a seminar on monday... yes you heard that right i didnt go to the UCLA seminar 2 weeks ago because I was sick. I'm going to a seminar in Bakersfield on Monday. This may sound weird but as long as I have a highly skilled bariatric surgeon with a great reputation/track record and have my surgery at a center of excellence I really dont care how it all works out because I know it will work out for my good. I have prayed for God to lead me to the place were he would have me go so I have peace with that. UCLA, Bakersfield, where ever just want it done well so I can truelly start my journey!

I want to start bloggin about my weightloss not this preop crap! LOL Atleast let me get to the point were I have my date and I am counting down....on a preop diet....My cubbards are stocked, I have protein for years and enough soup broth/stock to last a lifetime.... I'm ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let's GO!!!

So after talking with my mom, she really wants me to have my surgery at UCLA. I definately don't mind that. I know that they run a top notch program and even if ( when I get to that point) I have to wait a couple more weeks ( I said weeks not months) for my surgery date I will...just to make mommy happy.

On Monday I am going to my required seminar at UCLA Metabolic and Bariatric Program so I will report back on how it goes.....

I ready to get things going!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love Kaiser but I hate Kaiser at the same time! I got m referral the beginning of January but of course they require there 6 month options classes and crap. i wouldn't even be mad at that if I could have started this month...but nope! The classes don't even start till April! My Kaiser orientation isnt even till March. Now to me that makes no sense...it's obviously a tatic they use to weed people out so it costs them less....I know its a business for them but come on!!!!!! You except me to wait till april THEN wait 6 more months THEN wait to get a consultation THEn wait to get a surgery date???????????????????????????? Now I will do it if I must but I have proclaimed that I WILL have my surgery by my 30th b-day which is June 27 and some how, some way that will happen. I'm going to be steadfast, continue to do my research but I'm going to do everything possible to geth this done by June.. If I have to be the first ( or one of the few) that pulls this off going through Southern california Kaiser than I will.....sick back and enjoy the show........

Yes God is great and he keeps doing it for me. So i went to my appointment on Monday all prepared for a fight or at least to have to prove my case.....nope! She started to read the letter that I wrote and then said, " I can tell by this you are going to ask for a referral for bariatric surgery.....No Problem! i will definitely do that for you!" I was sooooo excited. i also followed up with the bariatric program in Kaiser Panorama City and I was accepted and my paperwork should be coming the mail shortly.


My short term goal is to have my surgery on or before my 30th birthday which is the end of June and it WILL happen! Now I know to most that may seem crazy considering that kaiser has a 6 month options class and my class doesn't start until April but I've got another idea in mind.....you know I've always got something up my sleeve........more to come! 

Well as you may know by now my motto for the year is Fit and Fine in 2009. So i am rerally trying to break down what that means to me. yes I WILL have weight loss surgery this year and I will be well on my way  to becoming the My healthiest, but what else? I realized that being healthy for me is not only about lossing this extra baggage. Its about taking better care of my skin and my hair and really taking better care of me!   So as part of my plan, a couple of days ago I did "The BIG CHOP". S for those that may not know what that means, The Big Chop is  when you cut off all your relaxed/proccessed hair and keep it natural ( or chemical free) that is exactly what I did. I just cut off all my ends. Now I haven't had a perm for a good year and an half so although my hair is short its not bald. I feel really good about it. Its almost like starting over and since I see my journey through weight loss as a New Birth, the shedding of my "old hair" is just part of that for me.The next part for me is getting my skin together! I need to moisturize and "love " on my skin a little more..okay a lot more... I barely rememeber to put lotion...lol But I mean i cant have this pretty face, soon to be great body and nice healthy hair and ashy dry skin....lol....lol that wont work....I'm gonna check out some products and just br more regimented in regards to my skin care.....more to come

Okay so I've got two goals that i want to accomplish on this upcoming weightloss journery... I have a lot more as i am sure I wil share down the road but here are two major ones for me.


#1- Look like my kids belong to me!
              Honestly my children are beautiful ( no I'm serious check the pics lol) and sometimes when people see us together they will look at them and say " the boys are so handsome" or look at my daughter and say, "she is sooo beautiful Myisha" then they look at me and then back at the kids to see if they can squeeze out any resemblence....now they try not to be obvious...but its obvious! My boys look a lot like there dad that's true no one is denying that. My daughter on the other hand really DOES look like me, or atleast the me that is underneath all this flesh and fat. Now as for her complextion...that is just God's work because her father is darker than I am so who knows how she came out with the lighter carmel skin...but her features are all mommy. When I compare pictures of me from when I was here age we look so much alike. Even my daughter thought the pictures were of her! So I digress......I just want to be as beautiful as my kids...you know look like we belong together because we do. They are a part of me and thus  are better versions of me but I'm still fly and I want people to be able to see that. Its not even all about there features its about the fact that they are all healthy and look in shape. They have atheletic builds and i want that for myself too.Maybe I am the only one who thinks like this but oh well.


#2- Be Smaller than my mom!!!!!!!
         I can't remember EVER being smaller than my mom.Now of course as a baby and toddler ...ages like that but from 6th grade and on i know I was bigger than her! Mind you we have very different body types. We both have no butt and no hips but my mom has VERY slender legs, and a regular chest. Even at her largest when she was an 18 she looked like a small 16 because her legs and hips were always slender....the woman has legs for days. i rememeber growing up wishing I had gotten my legs from my mom instead of my dad. I on the other hand  I have a very large chestand I got the  meaty thighs...you get the picture.....classic big girl who is top heavy... i embrace it and own it so its all good! Now and days my mom is about 12-14. She is also 5.8 which us two inches taller than me. I just want to be smaller than her...noo matter how you slice it I want to be smaller than my mom....were a smaller size.....look smaller....be smaller....I will get there.... I wil get there

This is not a New Years resolution.. I actually feel a little numb about the fact that it is New Years Eve. Im here just having a good day at home with my kids and tonight we will go to church....I'm grateful but mostly feel determined... I have goals that i will accomplish. My Motto( or Myisha's Grooove as I like to call it ) right now is is Fit and Fine in 2009... I'm sooooooo excited already and I have barely started on my WLS journey... maybe its because I have been on this weight jounery for most of my existence......


So let me catch you up..... I have made up my mind to get RNY and when I make up my mind its a wrap! I have Kaiser permanente of Southern California so I know that I have to do the 6 month Options classes through them. Before I even get to get in the classes I have to get a refferal from my PCP....did I mention we haven't met yet? i have my first appointment with her on january 13th and  I WILL BE ASKING FOR A REFFERRAL. I am going to be prayed up and go in to her office with confidence and I'm getting my refferal!!!! I wrote  a passionate letter to her, I also have my weight attempt history written and I have my records from the other insurance companies I was with during my pregancies. I have been with Kaiser for most of my life so they have most of my records but when I was married my insurance was through my husband's job so for my pregnancies i didnt have kaiser...just wantto fill in any gaps she might have. Honestly the way i figure it once she takes a look at me and I start talking from my heart and she see how much I weigh, she wont be able to deny me.  Shoot, my BMI is like 55!!!!I mean I know I'm pretty( hey if I dont believe it who will) but I am wayyyyyyy huge. 5'6 and over 340...that is not cute not matter how cute you may be...no what I mean....


I'm already really excited. Today i could resist going out and getting a great blender...I know I'm months a way but this way i figure I have time to perfect  my all my recipes. I dont want to wait and then i have the surgery only to find that the standard shake is nasty to me......well any way... that is were I'm at today........I will post more when i have more to say......Happy new Year