Making progress...

Nov 16, 2010

Ive had a couple of ruff dayz!  Nausea!  Drinking plenty actually!  Water mostly!  Anything with taste makes me a little ill feeling!  Just spent some time in the chat room on this site to find a distraction from my pity-party!  Feeling a lil bit better!

I keep wondering when do I start feeling NORMAL again...funny thing is Im not sure what NORMAL is!  Maybe not wanting to put ur face into a gal of ice cream IS normal!  Maybe eating when HUNGRY ONLY is normal!  I got to remember Im not ENTITLED to eat anymore!  My life CANT BE THE REASON I EAT...eating has to be the method by which I maintain life!  I confuse this all to often!  I cant live to eat...I must eat to live.  Simple!  This is like losing a best friend though!  What shall I do with ME if I cant eat?  I might have to get busy doing something else!  LOL  what a concept!  So today I will busy myself with putting the laundry in and painting a new gift for xmas for my stepdaughter!  Today I want to be doing something other than being bitter over the lack of my FOOD (friend)!

God give me patience!  This is not about the weight that I carry...It is about living long enough to be able to enjoy life by being able to suit up and show up for LIFE...I couldnt do that with food as my focus!

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