nanis
9 months but life is emotional roller coaster
Jul 02, 2011
health wise I'm great. Emotionally i'm a mess. we have been living in a different city from each other for the last 3 months. we talk over the phone and have even visited each other. our plan was to move to the city where he's currently at. But things change: my husband says he does not love me anymore and wants a divorce.we have been married for almost 13 years. what went wrong? i dont know. i love him so much and he knows it.
maybe its cuz we have no children. when i was overweight we tried 5 ivf treatments and did get pregnant but each of the pregnancies was miscarried. i opted to have weightloss surgery so that maybe with the weight off, i could get pregnant.
9 months out and since i'm at goal, i got the okay from my dr and i have not told my husband yet. i'm stopping my birth control this month. we are still living apart from one another.
maybe its cuz he met someone new-which i already asked and of course he says no.
maybe its cuz my body has changed so much that he thinks im a different person
maybe ??
i still have not gotten the reason why!
i need the reason why
i cant stand the pain I feel in my heart.
i had this surgery for him, for me --for us, so that we could have a family that we always wanted and now what?
he thought we had to wait 12 to 18 months before we could "TRY" and that's not true...we can try now. i have not told him because i dont want to have him stay just to try. because what if i do get pregnant and he still leaves me?
what if we try 3 months and i dont get pregnant and he still leaves me?
i really want to have a baby of my own but dont want the baby to suffer without his dad.
my husband grew up with out his dad too. his mom and dad left each other when he was about 1 yr old.
his grandma raised him.
i've already told him i will leave everything (family, job) to be with him and it doesnt seem to matter.
i dont know i i should tell him that we got the okay to try. i dont want to force him. what should i do?
