The Journey Continues

Apr 26, 2009

When I made the decision to have the RNY, little did I realize what a huge life change was in store for me.  Short term, I was thinking I need to lose the weight and improve my overall physical health.  I was on blood pressure medication, I had an injured knee that made walking such an ordeal and I knew that I had to do something soon or I could face many more serious health issues such as stroke, heart attack and diabetes. 

But even beyond the physical reasons for losing weight, I began to understand that on a mental or emotional level I needed to do this as well.  I hated the person I saw looking back at me in the mirror.  She was not happy and looked very little like the person I used to be.  I guess after several years of being fat, I tried to fool myself into thinking that was my lot in life now.

So now almost two years post RNY (well, two years this July) and almost one year post plastics (June 2008), I see a different person looking back at me in the mirror.  She is smiling more.  She feels good.  She likes to go shopping for clothes.  She likes going out with people.  She is a happier person.  No, life is not perfect.  The struggle continues to maintain the weight loss.  The problems of the real world still exist, but are no longer so oppressive that food becomes a refuge.  I know I need to be vigilant and stay focused, and so my journey continues on course.

Everyday I thank God, my family, friends and my trainer  for the support I have received to get where I am now.  And if that isn't a big Wow, I don't know what is.  To all of you traveling this same road, I send you all my love and support.

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