The Joy Luck Club

Jun 12, 2009

I can't believe it - as of June 5th I had lost 102 lbs!  I feel great and have a new outlook on life and the way I am living it.

I am moving when ever I can.  Walking when I can, parking far away....I am really trying and it seems to be working.

I do cheat a little - but I try to cheat with things that aren't really bad for me.  Pretzles and popcorn...not chips, fries, and cheez-its! 
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My Two (three) Sons

Apr 09, 2009

Saw Dr. yesterday and my blood work looks great and he said I am doing really well!  Yippie! NO more potassium for me! 

So to celebrate I decided to go to Old Navy and see how far away I am from wearing a XXL.  I picked out a couple shirts, some stretchy some not thinking, 'no way are these going to fit'.  I went to the dressing room and cried!  The shirts fit - so I had to buy two!  I was so excited I told the gal at the register and she squealed with excitement for me!  I am wearing one today and it is almost a little to big in the top area for work! 

Man - this is amazing!  I have lost 80 pounds since this journey began last April and you know what?  I figured out that is like carrying two of my sons around with me everywhere.
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The Transformers

Feb 03, 2009

I can really see my body transforming lately.  I fit into a pair of non-stretch, size 26 jeans this morning.  PRE-WEDDING jeans.  I had them in a pile of jeans that I am collecting from family members for a quilt.  I couldn't believe it!

I am down 54 total, 37 since the surgery.

Food is still funny.  Only 5 days until I can add veggies, one a day, at one meal for a month.  Then when ever, I think.  Round steak and chicken cordon bleu both made me throw up and on the second try feel like I would.  I think it is just the texture...too rough and tough.

I am starting at the Y today - I have so much energy lately...it's great.

Even my 3.5 year old son said, "You look like a different Mommy." today.  Now - that could have just him being silly, but I like to think that he noticed my outfit today, it really did make me look a lot smaller...smaller jeans that I didn't swim in and a shirt that pink wrap shirt that fits the way it is suppose to instead of too tight (before surgery). 

This has definitely been the best decision I have ever made for my health.  I know it is a long road but I am ready to walk it now!

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The Usual Suspects

Jan 19, 2009

I feel so much better.  My Dr. upped my meds and people here on OH have been really helpful and understanding.  Things have kicked in and I have my energy back.  

Now - back to walking, uggggg.  I don't know if I will ever like to exercise, but people tell me if I keep doing it I will miss it if I have to stop.  Here's hopin'.

No weight loss for awhile, seem to be in that beginning stall.  But I keep getting in my H2O and my protein, so I am doing the right things, just waiting for it to come off on the scale.  Maybe I need to stop getting on it every morning.  I don't let it get me down, it's just nice to see it go down when I have mostly just seen it go up!

I also still have cravings for foods.  I really wanted onion rings (and other fried foods) the other day when DH was eating them when we went out to eat and I still crave chocolate.  I was hoping that wouldn't be the case, but I suspect that these will be life long struggles with me.  The usual suspects, french fries and chocolate.  Maybe those cravings will go away after more time, I am only a little over a month post-op.  It just feels like I have been eating meat, and meat only FOREVER!  I can't wait to eat some veggies, I have been craving them and fruit too.  So perhaps it's really that I want something other than protein - not just fried and chocolate!  That's it!
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Something wicked this way comes.

Jan 13, 2009

I am Manic Depressive and am on Cymbalta - but for the last week I could feel the depression creeping up again.  I ignored it, thinking it would go away, but it didn't and yesterday it hit me really hard.  I have an appointment with my PCP to do a med check and up my dosage but thought you all might have some other advice for me. 

The nurse at BMI said most RNY patients have some depression after wards, coping mechanisms gone, etc.  I am walking in the morning, but it seems that when I am done is when I start to feel really bad. 

God bless Dave, he stayed with me yesterday - I don't think I could have been alone, just to sad.  Today has been better, but I made myself get up, walk, shower, get to work.  Keeping me from just wanting to sleep all day. 
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At the end of the tunnel...

Jan 07, 2009

I think I am begining to see the light.  Got lots of sleep last night, upped my protein by about 10-15 grams, and started thinking about what I am going to feel like in a few weeks instead of what I am feeling right now. 

I tried to go to a support group last night - but no one showed up.  There were no members, no leader, no one.  I called Information at the hospital and they said that someone should be there, I waited 15 mintues, but no one came so...I guess I will just have to go to the one in Joliet, I just thought this one would be better as it is closer.  But....

I am feeling pretty good today.  Less thirsty than usual and actually wanted to eat lunch.  I just had most of a hard boiled egg and some ham.  I think the protein is the key...plus I need to start walking again.  It just tires me out so much I hate to do it.
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Human Hibernation!

Jan 06, 2009

I have been reading about the '3 Week Stall' and think that I am in it.  I haven't lost any weight since Thursday (Jan 1)...plus I am so tired I could sleep all day. 

I know I should be eating three times a day, but can't make myself do it.  I am eating at least 2x's a day about 1 oz at a time.  Any more than that is uncomfortable.  I am drinking about what I am suppose to - up to about 50 oz, so that is ok. 

Is the sleepiness because my metabolism is slowing down (thinks it's starving)?  Will this go away soon?  I am having a hard time paying attention at work...

According to advice on the forums I need to be getting more protein, I am going to start having a shake in the morning on my way to work to get in more protein and hopefully that will help.

Some research has showed me that it is not uncommon for the body to say "Wait just a minute here - where is my food?" and try to shut down until the food comes back.  Exercise is suppose to help - but how are you suppose to do that when all you want to do it sleep.  I am going to try 10 minute increments and see if that helps too. 

I know there is a learning curve, but I don't like to sit around not getting things done.  I feel like I am missing a big chunk of the plan here and I can't figure out what it is. 

I did go back to work after one week, maybe that was a mistake.  Maybe it was just too soon, but I don't like to sit around either. 
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Quite, shhh, do you smell something?

Jan 02, 2009

I am thinking that something is wrong. I can only eat about 1 oz at a time only 2 times a day.  If I try for three I have horrible pain and nausea for hours (usually about 5-7 hours).  I am spacing my meals out more than 5 hours if I can and I am trying to drink all the water - but it is impossible without making myself burp all the time and nauseous.  I have not had a BM in over a week, even with 2-4 fiber pills a day, this could just be that I am not eating enough.  I am eating soft protein with plenty of stuff to make it even more moist, with no avail.  I don't drink until 90 minutes have passed, and then that seems to be when the problem comes in.  I hate to wait longer because I am so thirsty by that point.  I am keeping track of my water and get about 40 oz per day.

I e-mailed the office to see what they say.

Also - my burps seriously smell like gas.  At New Year's everyone kept asking me if I farted, and I didn't.  I had to admit that I had just burped.  How embarassing.
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Your not talking whale, your talking, like, upset stomach...

Dec 31, 2008

So today I have been pretty nauseous all day.  I feel like my acid reflux is in hyper drive.  I am constantly burping up water and stuff.

Maybe I am drinking too fast, but I have cotton mouth and just want to chug some water.

I had some chic. salad for breakfast and haven't eaten again yet.  I was walking and threw up in my mouth a little bit.  Like I did last night, it woke be up, but luckily it didn't come out.  It takes so bad I can barely take it.

On the up side, I am on the other side of 300 lbs. for the first time since 2004!
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Tough Couple Days

Dec 29, 2008

I am getting used to the speed and amount of eating I think.  I feel like every time I eat I have food in my throat that won't go away for HOURS!

My pain is doing great - no ES Tylenol for two days now.  I still can't bend over on my left side and coughing/sneezing is painful, but I know it is getting better!

I haven't been exercising like I should be - but Christmas was awful.  DH had the flu Tuesday night, DS had it Christmas night 'Daddy, I don't know why this keeps happening" so sad.  And then I am pretty sure I had it the next day - but because I didn't eat, I didn't have anything to throw up!  I need to get back on track.  I am trying to convince DH that we need a dog to keep me on track.

I feel pretty queasy when I wake up in the morning, but after I drink something it usually goes away.  What really bothers me is this stupid lump in my throat that feels like heartburn all the time.  I had a Tums last night, but also took some sleep meds to help me get through it.  So I don't know if that helped.  I was so tired and sad that I couldn't go to sleep without some help. 
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12/15/2008
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