a little this , a little that

Jul 27, 2011

Hey OH!
Hope everyone is doing well!

I am now 13 months out from having the sleeve & all in all i'm very happy with my decision!

However, I have had some issues. I have experienced major hair loss. Mostly due to my irresponsibility and lack of commitment to my vitamin intake. The first few months, the hair loss was minimum. At about 9 months out, it got bad! Last month, i went for one year labwork and i was not surprised to find out I was very anemic along with  B12 defficiencies and low on pretty much every other vitamin. Needless to say, my energy level was dragging on the floor, my skin was dull, hair falling out in clumps and i was experiencing dizzy spells. The doctor prescribed me iron supplements, b12 shots, and iron nasal spray. I have also added biotin, b complex, Omega/fish oil complex and a weaight management multi vitamin. i have already felt some improvement but my doctor said i need to give it about 3 months to really back to normal.

Aside from the biotin supplements to help my hair grow, I have also been using an at-home remedy to stimulate the follicles and encourage healthy hair growth. i mix a tbsp of jojoba oil, 5 drops of rosemary oil and 2 drops of lavendar oil and i rub it on my scalp every other night and wash it out in the morning.  Ive been doing this for about a month and yesterday i was soooo exciuted to see little baby hair sprouting ;)


I have lost a little over 100 lbs. im about 35 lbs from my goal weight and i still see the same 300lbs+ girl in the mirror. I pick up clothes in my current size and think to myself "there is no way i will fit in this" and then someone snaps a picture of me and i honestly cant believe its me. Everyone says they dont even remember the bigger me anymore. and sometimes i get depressed over the loose skin, the cellulite, the stretch marks and pretty much this body suit of the fat girl melting. i know the closer i get to goal, the better the loose skin will be and the cellulite has gotten better since i started excersizing but sometimes i get so mad at myself for damamging my body this way. For the most part, i have always been very confident, even at my heaviest. Lately i have had more ups and down with my self image then i ever remember having before. Granted, i just got out of a very emotionally abusive relationship with a narcissist who was unfaithful for the most part of the 10 years so of course that took it toll on my self esteem . physically he never put me down, in fact it was the only thing he seemed to like about me.  even at my heaviest, he was always attracted to me physically and sexually. He put me down in every other way, from the music i listened, the way i was, what i enjoyed doing, my friends. Whoever has dealt with this kind of sociopath understands the devastation they cause. Fortunately i have broken free, i am seeing a therapist, attending church, got a restraining order and changed my number.

I am working on a healthier me, inside and out. Mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Losing weight is just the beginning...


until next time my friends!

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