Huge Changes....

May 08, 2009

Boy things change when you go threw WLS!!

I have alot of mixed feelings lately about myself and how others view me. Especially my husband. This is in no way meant to bash him, but this post will be mostly about him.

I'm not sure how he feels about me anymore. Without going too deep into details, our sex life is null and void. He has no interest in being intimate with me. He has expressed this on several occasions, but also says he has no interest in sex at all. Then his actions say otherwise, that he just has no interest in sex with ME. I'm not saying he's cheated on me, but it's apparent he has an appetite for sex, just not with me. So what do I do to fix this? Where do I go from here? For once in my life I am taking pride in my appearance and my health. I have this new found self esteem and actually like how I look. I feel SEXY. I wore a dress for like the first time in years yesterday, and he didn't say a work. I wore heals, looked great and he just looked at me like I was wearing sweats. He doesn't see me anymore. I had to ASK him if I looked good? The obvious response, yes.

I have a need that needs to be met. That need is that I am wanted and am beautiful. Currently it's not being met, and I am not sure if it ever will be met with him again.

I love my husband dearly, and can't picture my life without him, but at what extent do you stop putting up with something like that and allow yourself to deserve MORE?



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