Time to Close the GATE

Jul 19, 2009

Ok, AS YOU may have noticed (or not) its been a minute since I posted anything. Somehow the spirit of complacency had come along and told me that I was finer than I knew I was, and that it was time for me to break out of my shell and hit the streets! With that said, I have been the local "it" girl bouncing all over town, spending money, shopping, clubbing, drinking, etc. Doing all the things that are not conducive to a healthy lifestyle. However, the saying goes, anything in moderation can be tolerated right? I guess. So I just logged in to see that 15 days ago, i was 246lbs. 2 weeks later im 242/243. Meaning I have only lost 4lbs in 2 weeks. NOt Cool. Not at all. Im not one of those "oh ive reached a stall" kinda girls. I really dont believe in stalls. I believe that during that "stalled" out time, we did something, we ate something, or we neglected to do something that has stopped our weight loss. It is at that point that change does not occur, until we get off our "think we skinny" asses, and get back on the wagon, bench, cloud, whatever you wanna call it. So with that said, I get so excited for the weekends, and I rarely tell anyone NO, so i been out and about drinking, partying, and trying to stay afloat, only to find that by monday, I have to start all over at the gym b/c the past 4 days that I had been there sweating, lifting, running for dear life--have been nullified by my inability to have fun without drinking and eating bullcrap.

Starting Today, July 19, 2009, i AM utilizing my tool that God made the way, and Blue Cross paid the day, and I'm going to start over. I told you guys before I wasnt one for lofty goals. My next mini goal is not so much as a goal, but an affirmation. I will be under 200lbs by January 1. I have roughtly 43lbs to go to get there. I am not drinking alcohol--POINTLESS CARBS. I will be ok to say NO and not always give in as I know my weekness is fun!

Its so easy to slip up. Its been 8 months, and I have slipped up. All damn ready. Although I dont feel like a failure (its way to soon for that nonsense), I  do feel like these habits could've easily been ignored and I could creep my way back to 366lbs. I dont want to be there AT ALL. It just felt so good to be able to shop, eat, play, drink, and "fit" EVERYWHERE. I got comfortable. I dont think I want to be comfortable at 243 lbs size 18 jeans, large shirt, 14 dress. My comfortable is somewhere else, and until I find it. I have to stop the bad habits while im still young enough to see them....and I need your help and support to keep me focused Man!

Hollaback!

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