Cha Ching 6/7/10

Jun 29, 2010

Okay, I knew going into this whole thing, it wasn't going to be cheap. My first appointment I put $200 down on the $1650 program costs that the insurance wouldn't cover. But when we met with the finance lady, she also reviewed the cost of the Optifast program I'll have to be on 3-6 weeks prior to the surgery. The cost of the Optifast will be around $860 bucks.

I received a statement from my hospital saying the initial appointment was $372.35! Granted, that's not what I'll wind up having to pay after the insurance picks it up, but still. Frickin' INSANE!

I'm also feeling very overwhelmed about all the paperwork I received in the mail. The packet included a list of my pre-set appointments, a list of all the testing I'll need to have prior to surgery, the doctor's "orders", as well as some paperwork I need to take for my Psych. Evaluation. I laid out all of the package--which was around like 5 million pages and tried to make sense of it. I was feeling so confused that J came to the rescue! He helped me figure out what went with what. We figured out which appointments were pre-set, which appointments I'd have to set, and which appointments were pre-requisites to other appointments. Oh, and which appointments were my diet and exercise appointments. There's 12 total appointments (some of which are just initial consultations).

Today was my day off at work. I made a list of all of my pre-sets and called and scheduled 4 other appointments. I decided to run into work for a minute to give my crazy long list to the girl that does our scheduling. I told her about a week or so ago that this day would be coming, and she was very supportive. Without revealing too much about me, I work in a business that requires 2 different departments. There's about 5 on one side and 3 on the other. Unfortunately for scheduling purposes, I'm on the side with 3. Not only that, but I'm the only one in the whole place that can do both jobs. So when the one side is short-staffed, I float on over and help them out. That sucks for me, because my current job description is sales, so helping them cuts out of my money in my pocket. Anyway, that's not the issue at hand. I went to talk to my scheduler and she was able to fit in all my requests off and I was able to use them as my regular day off for the most part! I still have 19 PTO days this year, so I'm glad I didn't have to dip into them too, too much. Only a couple days. I'm so lucky that we were able to work it out.

Aside from that, I'm struggling with a few different things--how to tell my in laws that I know that they know, how to tell our friends, and finally, the diet itself. During weekdays, I'm doing okay--if only I could get J to eat dinner at a regular time each night. Weekends are the hard part. We mainly dine out. I just have to figure out a way to be good! The last thing I'm having a hard time dealing with is that I am really feeling unsexy. My husband and I used to have sex a lot. Now we're lucky if we have sex once a week. We've been married for 5 years now, but this has been a recent development. I offer to have sex and he turns me down. Or he'll want to have sex right when I'm making dinner, or when I'm busy with something--never when it's "bed time." He hasn't been coming to bed with me lately either--which I think is the real reason we're not having sex that often. I don't know how to fix it, but I wish I could figure out what the problem is.

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