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I am Overweight and Happy
Nov 10, 2010
So I am finally here. Not only have I surpassed my second goal, bu I am now considered "Overweight". I guess that is something to be happy about considering I was "Obese". I will be Obese for another 28 pounds. Today I weight 188.6, I have lost close to 56 pounds in 18 weeks. That is an average of just over 3 pounds a week.
Now for the happy... I love the skin I am in. I enjoy shopping again. I like how I look naked again, no more hiding
.
Now that I am more than half way through I am starting to reconsider my goals. Do I really want to be 140 pounds? Would 150 pounds be more appropriate? I guess I will see when I get closer.
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Now for the happy... I love the skin I am in. I enjoy shopping again. I like how I look naked again, no more hiding
.Now that I am more than half way through I am starting to reconsider my goals. Do I really want to be 140 pounds? Would 150 pounds be more appropriate? I guess I will see when I get closer.
Goal 1... I made it!!!
Aug 18, 2010
It has been seven weeks since surgery and I have accomplished my first goal.
Goal 1 - 210 lbs. This morning when I weighed myself, I was 209.6 lbs.
I started at 244.4 and weighed 236 the day of surgery. Thanks to my sleeve and just a little will power, I have lost 26 lbs in 7 weeks.
I chose this goal thinking that I would be able to fit my clothes better. I just didn't figure that my size 20's, 18W's, 18's, and 16W's would no longer fit and I would be a size 16. I wear my 16's with confidence. I feel like my old self. I don't look in the mirror to make sure that my shirt is not puckering, or to make sure that the buttons on my shirt are not about to pop off. I look to check myself out. I look good. I am not where I want to be but I am a lot closer than I was 7 weeks ago.
So here I am, Goal 1 down. What's next? First the Spa (my reward), then Goal 2 of course.
That's my Onederland. Thinking back, I guess I was not sure how much my weight would fluctuate. So... I wanted a safe area in the 100's. I guess I watched too many lap band youtube videos
.
I really feel that I will never see above this weight again. When I reach Goal 2 I will definitely be a size or maybe even two smaller. I think I have 3 size 14 outfits in my closet. I gave away the rest. I am sure I will need new clothes and maybe even underwear. I am excited to go shopping at Victoria's Secret!!!
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Goal 1 - 210 lbs. This morning when I weighed myself, I was 209.6 lbs.
I started at 244.4 and weighed 236 the day of surgery. Thanks to my sleeve and just a little will power, I have lost 26 lbs in 7 weeks.
I chose this goal thinking that I would be able to fit my clothes better. I just didn't figure that my size 20's, 18W's, 18's, and 16W's would no longer fit and I would be a size 16. I wear my 16's with confidence. I feel like my old self. I don't look in the mirror to make sure that my shirt is not puckering, or to make sure that the buttons on my shirt are not about to pop off. I look to check myself out. I look good. I am not where I want to be but I am a lot closer than I was 7 weeks ago.
So here I am, Goal 1 down. What's next? First the Spa (my reward), then Goal 2 of course.
That's my Onederland. Thinking back, I guess I was not sure how much my weight would fluctuate. So... I wanted a safe area in the 100's. I guess I watched too many lap band youtube videos
. I really feel that I will never see above this weight again. When I reach Goal 2 I will definitely be a size or maybe even two smaller. I think I have 3 size 14 outfits in my closet. I gave away the rest. I am sure I will need new clothes and maybe even underwear. I am excited to go shopping at Victoria's Secret!!!
Life is no excuse, or atleast a bad one
Aug 10, 2010
Life is no excuse to not take care of myself or at least a bad excuse. So I got the eating down pat, but I am torturing myself with exercise.
A month ago I promised myself that I would not step on the scale everyday. That lasted about a week. I eat great; track, measure, protein first. I only consume an average of 650 calories a day. So there is no reason not to loose weight, but I can do better!!! I need to stop waiting until Sunday based on what the scale says to exercise. This is not fair to you!!! Not only is it stressful, but it is not healthy.
I must stop making up excuses...
I have not been cleared to exercise, so what's stopping me from walking
I don't have P90X yet, but I have a Y membership
I don't want to wake up, but I stay up all night watching you-tube.
If I workout too late I can not sleep at night, so what is stopping you when you first get home.
This is more than about losing weight. I want to be healthy and balanced. I need to get my mind in the game. Sure, the tool is working, but is that the best I can do? I think not!!!
So get up off the computer and continue the C25K and start P90X. You must stop allowing life to create excuses to not be a better you. Use that same determination you display professionally and apply it personally. And by the way, your six year old is watching, so be a model.
OK, get to it!!!
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A month ago I promised myself that I would not step on the scale everyday. That lasted about a week. I eat great; track, measure, protein first. I only consume an average of 650 calories a day. So there is no reason not to loose weight, but I can do better!!! I need to stop waiting until Sunday based on what the scale says to exercise. This is not fair to you!!! Not only is it stressful, but it is not healthy.
I must stop making up excuses...
I have not been cleared to exercise, so what's stopping me from walking
I don't have P90X yet, but I have a Y membership
I don't want to wake up, but I stay up all night watching you-tube.
If I workout too late I can not sleep at night, so what is stopping you when you first get home.
This is more than about losing weight. I want to be healthy and balanced. I need to get my mind in the game. Sure, the tool is working, but is that the best I can do? I think not!!!
So get up off the computer and continue the C25K and start P90X. You must stop allowing life to create excuses to not be a better you. Use that same determination you display professionally and apply it personally. And by the way, your six year old is watching, so be a model.
OK, get to it!!!
Exercise, even a little helps!!!
Jul 20, 2010
I just completed my 3rd week post-op and I am down another 4.4 pounds. That's right, I am 220!!!
This is great, all added was 30 minutes on the treadmill daily at 2.8 speed and 4.5 incline. I am going to increase the pace to 3 this week. My goal is to start the C25K starting week 5. Just to think, a few weeks ago I was winded and felt like my calves were going to burst walking to the end of the platform to catch a train. Just little changes make the difference.
Before surgery, I was busting out of my size 18 church suits. Actually, I could not wear them. I struggled each week to find something appropriate to wear and that was not only comfortable, but did not make me look like an over stuffed sausage. This week, I went to my closet and could not only fit the 18's but also the 16's!!! All of my size 18 pants are very loose in the waist. I need to fold them over to wear. I can fit XL at Target instead of XXL.
I no longer have edema in my lower extremities. When I bend down to buckle my shoes, I don't feel my stomach. I can wear hills all day. I have room to buckle sandals, and not the first buckle. I feel comfortable wearing short sleeve shirts. My bras are too loose on the first snaps. I can lie down on the train or elevate my feet on the seat with out them going numb. I can walk again with my husband and not need to stop every block because I am tired or my legs hurt.
I have control over what I put in my mouth. I eat because I need the nutrition for energy. I do not eat just because it looks good. I do not eat because I am happy, sad, bored, or just because it is there. I make choices based on what I need, not what looks or smells good.
I have made adjustments and I am not missing a thing.
- Drinks: I used to drink pitchers of Kool-aid with pineapple juice a week, or glasses of OJ daily, cans of Pespi that I needed each meal in order to assist with digestion because I over ate, a daily trip to Chick-fil-a for a Chicken biscuit and large sweet tea and lemonade mixed. Now I have water or Crystal light. I enjoy the fruit punch flavor (substitute for Kool-aid) or pink lemonade (substitute for sweet tea and lemonade mixed).
- Breakfast: I used to go to Chick-fil-a every morning or get pancakes with eggs and bacon or a plate full of rice and eggs with cheese and bacon. Now I enjoy 2-3 oz of oatmeal and water or 2-4 oz of cottage cheese, or a half of a smoothie. I have always enjoyed going to Cracker Barrel with my family. It is the one place we all can find something we like. Breakfast is my favorite meal mostly because of pancakes w/syrup. I went to breakfast with my husband Saturday. I would usually order chicken fried steak with biscuits w/ syrup, eggs, grits, and hash brown casserole. To top it off, I would have 3 Arnold Palmers. This time I had 2 oz of grits mixed with and edge of turkey sausage and a half of teaspoon of eggs. I mashed the egg and sausage until it was the same consistency as the grits. I ate 2/3 and was satisfied.
These are only examples of changes, and I am more than satisfied.
I love my sleeve!!!
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This is great, all added was 30 minutes on the treadmill daily at 2.8 speed and 4.5 incline. I am going to increase the pace to 3 this week. My goal is to start the C25K starting week 5. Just to think, a few weeks ago I was winded and felt like my calves were going to burst walking to the end of the platform to catch a train. Just little changes make the difference.
Before surgery, I was busting out of my size 18 church suits. Actually, I could not wear them. I struggled each week to find something appropriate to wear and that was not only comfortable, but did not make me look like an over stuffed sausage. This week, I went to my closet and could not only fit the 18's but also the 16's!!! All of my size 18 pants are very loose in the waist. I need to fold them over to wear. I can fit XL at Target instead of XXL.
I no longer have edema in my lower extremities. When I bend down to buckle my shoes, I don't feel my stomach. I can wear hills all day. I have room to buckle sandals, and not the first buckle. I feel comfortable wearing short sleeve shirts. My bras are too loose on the first snaps. I can lie down on the train or elevate my feet on the seat with out them going numb. I can walk again with my husband and not need to stop every block because I am tired or my legs hurt.
I have control over what I put in my mouth. I eat because I need the nutrition for energy. I do not eat just because it looks good. I do not eat because I am happy, sad, bored, or just because it is there. I make choices based on what I need, not what looks or smells good.
I have made adjustments and I am not missing a thing.
- Drinks: I used to drink pitchers of Kool-aid with pineapple juice a week, or glasses of OJ daily, cans of Pespi that I needed each meal in order to assist with digestion because I over ate, a daily trip to Chick-fil-a for a Chicken biscuit and large sweet tea and lemonade mixed. Now I have water or Crystal light. I enjoy the fruit punch flavor (substitute for Kool-aid) or pink lemonade (substitute for sweet tea and lemonade mixed).
- Breakfast: I used to go to Chick-fil-a every morning or get pancakes with eggs and bacon or a plate full of rice and eggs with cheese and bacon. Now I enjoy 2-3 oz of oatmeal and water or 2-4 oz of cottage cheese, or a half of a smoothie. I have always enjoyed going to Cracker Barrel with my family. It is the one place we all can find something we like. Breakfast is my favorite meal mostly because of pancakes w/syrup. I went to breakfast with my husband Saturday. I would usually order chicken fried steak with biscuits w/ syrup, eggs, grits, and hash brown casserole. To top it off, I would have 3 Arnold Palmers. This time I had 2 oz of grits mixed with and edge of turkey sausage and a half of teaspoon of eggs. I mashed the egg and sausage until it was the same consistency as the grits. I ate 2/3 and was satisfied.
These are only examples of changes, and I am more than satisfied.
I love my sleeve!!!
Slowly but SURELY
Jul 14, 2010
Well, I am week 2 Post OP. Everything is going great. I lost 2.2 pounds down to 224.4.
All of my incisions have healed with the exeption of one. It is located on the front right. I suppose it is because it is on my dominant side and she had to cut through muscle. My PCP has cecked it and said it looks fine, just give a week or two... Do I have a choice? No.
What am I eating? Yogurt, Vitamin Water by Glaceau or Sobe, Protein water by Isopure, CranGrape juice, Cheese and Brocoli soup from Au Bon Pain, French Onion soup from Panara Bread, and chocolate pudding. In a typical day, I have vitamin water in the morning, 5 table spoons of soup for lunch, half of bottle of Isopure, ice with CranGrape juice, and 5 tablespoons of soup or 2 table spoons of pudding for dinner. This amounts to about 650 calories at the most and 30 grams of protein.
I am getting better every week. I do get my daily intake of water/fluids. I still need to work on the protein. This week I can add protein powder, but not fruit. Next week is fruit. So next week, I will add protein shakes for breakfast and lunch along with the Isopure. Hopefully I can get to atleast 50 grams of protein. I think this will be much easier when I get on solids. I am so ready for solids, but I do not mind the sacrifice. It is only a couple of more weeks. You gotta love the sleeve, I do!!!
Next week I will be adding exercise to my regimen. I hope to start at 45 minutes walking. I would like to work my way up to starting the C25K by week 4.
I did not have this surgery to play around. I will loose the weight, I will follow the rules, I will exercise, I will be sucessful!!!
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All of my incisions have healed with the exeption of one. It is located on the front right. I suppose it is because it is on my dominant side and she had to cut through muscle. My PCP has cecked it and said it looks fine, just give a week or two... Do I have a choice? No.
What am I eating? Yogurt, Vitamin Water by Glaceau or Sobe, Protein water by Isopure, CranGrape juice, Cheese and Brocoli soup from Au Bon Pain, French Onion soup from Panara Bread, and chocolate pudding. In a typical day, I have vitamin water in the morning, 5 table spoons of soup for lunch, half of bottle of Isopure, ice with CranGrape juice, and 5 tablespoons of soup or 2 table spoons of pudding for dinner. This amounts to about 650 calories at the most and 30 grams of protein.
I am getting better every week. I do get my daily intake of water/fluids. I still need to work on the protein. This week I can add protein powder, but not fruit. Next week is fruit. So next week, I will add protein shakes for breakfast and lunch along with the Isopure. Hopefully I can get to atleast 50 grams of protein. I think this will be much easier when I get on solids. I am so ready for solids, but I do not mind the sacrifice. It is only a couple of more weeks. You gotta love the sleeve, I do!!!
Next week I will be adding exercise to my regimen. I hope to start at 45 minutes walking. I would like to work my way up to starting the C25K by week 4.
I did not have this surgery to play around. I will loose the weight, I will follow the rules, I will exercise, I will be sucessful!!!
I've been through the storm.... Thank God I am making it
Jul 06, 2010
It has been a rough week, still sore. Instead of head hunger, I have movement hunger. My mind tells me to move and get things done. My body says, slow down and rest. I think we have finally come to a balance.
Though I have pretty much met my goal for this week, there are something’s I can improve on.
week restriction. Come August 12th, I am starting C25K. Until then, it will
be 30 minutes walking at a comfortable pace.
· Protein. I only got an average of 15 grams the past 3 days. I thing I will add the protein bullets this week. All in all, I am thankful that I am recovering and there are no major issues. I feel better every day.
Scoot over, I am slowly joining you on the bench.
Jul 02, 2010
Well, I am finally on the other side. It actually went by really quick.
It was a great experience, I am a stomach sleeper, so most of my issues were related to that. The hardest part of this portion of my journey was the removal of the drain and the two barium test. Yes I said two.
I wanted to see what my stomach looked like before, and of course after. Wow, I had a big stomach. Thanks to Dr. Pompa, I have a banana, and can only sip 4 spoons of broth.
I thank God for my husband. He has been strong. We recently lost his mother, 3 weeks ago, yet he was there to help me in my recovery. I must say that it has been difficult not speaking to her and hearing her encouraging voice. I know she is in a better place.
Thanks also to all of those who sent prayers and "good luck wishes".
In order to prepare for the liquid stages of my journey, I purchased the Vitamix Professional Series 500 Blender. I knew I wanted the Vitamix, it is what they use at the smoothie shop I go to. I choose this blender because I could pick it up at my local Williams-Sonoma.
I just purchased the Zoku Popsicle maker. I couldn't find Popsicles with out additives, so I decided to make my own.
Finally, a yogurt maker. I am lactose intolerant now, i suppose it will not get better.
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It was a great experience, I am a stomach sleeper, so most of my issues were related to that. The hardest part of this portion of my journey was the removal of the drain and the two barium test. Yes I said two.
I wanted to see what my stomach looked like before, and of course after. Wow, I had a big stomach. Thanks to Dr. Pompa, I have a banana, and can only sip 4 spoons of broth.
I thank God for my husband. He has been strong. We recently lost his mother, 3 weeks ago, yet he was there to help me in my recovery. I must say that it has been difficult not speaking to her and hearing her encouraging voice. I know she is in a better place.
Thanks also to all of those who sent prayers and "good luck wishes".
In order to prepare for the liquid stages of my journey, I purchased the Vitamix Professional Series 500 Blender. I knew I wanted the Vitamix, it is what they use at the smoothie shop I go to. I choose this blender because I could pick it up at my local Williams-Sonoma.
I just purchased the Zoku Popsicle maker. I couldn't find Popsicles with out additives, so I decided to make my own.
Finally, a yogurt maker. I am lactose intolerant now, i suppose it will not get better.
Next Week... Here Already!!!
Jun 20, 2010
Well, I am a week and a half away from surgery. I am excited. It is almost like preparing for a baby.
I start my pre-op diet tomorrow. I was supposed to start last Monday with a reduced calorie diet. My Mother in Law died on the June 7th, it has been all consuming. She would tell me to pick my self up and prepare, so that is what i will do.
I purchased a couple of protein samples, a scale, and a mini blender. Other than a heating pad, I am set.
So with that said...
Let's start with Goals:
I am ending with an affirmation:
I will loose weight, I will reach my goals, I will succeed!!!
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I start my pre-op diet tomorrow. I was supposed to start last Monday with a reduced calorie diet. My Mother in Law died on the June 7th, it has been all consuming. She would tell me to pick my self up and prepare, so that is what i will do.
I purchased a couple of protein samples, a scale, and a mini blender. Other than a heating pad, I am set.
So with that said...
Let's start with Goals:
| Goal | Weight | Benefit | Reward |
| Goal 1 | 210 lbs | I can fit my clothes much better | Full Day at the Spa |
| Goal 2 | 195 lbs | I am really in Onederland | Go Shopping, I will definetly need more clothes |
| Goal 3 | 170 lbs | Out of High Blood Pressure Range | Mini Shopping Spree |
| Goal 4 | 159 lbs | "Normal" BMI | Weekend Vacation w/ Hubby |
| Goal 5 | 140 lbs | This is where I want to be | New Wardrobe |
I am ending with an affirmation:
I will loose weight, I will reach my goals, I will succeed!!!
Best way to combat Fear is to PLAN to succeed
Jun 01, 2010
So here I am, 29 days until my surgery.
Instead of excitement, I am consumed with doubt.
What's constantly on my mind?
1) Will this work?
2) Will I reach my goal?
3) What will I look like if I do loose the xtra weight?
4) Is this one of many surgeries... when will it end.
5) Is this the right surgery for me?
Though being healthy is my primary goal, I must admit, I want to look good. Unfortunately, I can only plan for things I can control.
I can control whether or not this will work. It will work and I will reach my goal. I have six months to hit goal, after then, it may be a little harder.
So along with my new tool, I plan on following a strict eating plan. I just need to find one or have one created that is suitable.
I also spent most of the weekend reorganizing my closet and basement. I will start exercising this week and trying out shakes. I want to be ready and excuse free,
As for the xtra skin and surgery, I guess I have to cross that bridge when I get there. I don't like what I look like now. I spend a lot of time covering up. At least in the next 7 months, I can cover up and smile
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Instead of excitement, I am consumed with doubt.
What's constantly on my mind?
1) Will this work?
2) Will I reach my goal?
3) What will I look like if I do loose the xtra weight?
4) Is this one of many surgeries... when will it end.
5) Is this the right surgery for me?
Though being healthy is my primary goal, I must admit, I want to look good. Unfortunately, I can only plan for things I can control.
I can control whether or not this will work. It will work and I will reach my goal. I have six months to hit goal, after then, it may be a little harder.
So along with my new tool, I plan on following a strict eating plan. I just need to find one or have one created that is suitable.
I also spent most of the weekend reorganizing my closet and basement. I will start exercising this week and trying out shakes. I want to be ready and excuse free,
As for the xtra skin and surgery, I guess I have to cross that bridge when I get there. I don't like what I look like now. I spend a lot of time covering up. At least in the next 7 months, I can cover up and smile
Wii.. is that really Mii?
May 24, 2010
My husband brought me a Wii for my birthday. He enjoys video games and thought it would be the type of game system I would be interested in. He was right.
Last night I decided to set up my avatar Mii. I chose her name, size, features; I was satisfied. I thought she looked just like me. I proceeded to go through the process of setting up my profile. Next was the balance test, then the weight test.
Next thing I saw gave me a dose of reality. My Mii avatar grew before my eyes. I watched as her weight went from normal to obese. Not just obese, but the top of the Wii obese spectrum. The last straw was the Wii age. It said I was 58. I feel it too, so shamed. I wonder why I let it go so far.
I all of a sudden felt what it it may feel like to be anorexic or at least have body dis-morphia. When I see myself, I see thin. I don't see my xtra large frame in size large clothes. I usually think my clothes shrink, never considered I grew.
This was a wake up call. I need to start now making better decisions. I am glad that I am close to surgery and an important decision to change has been made. Now I need to get the rest of my mind together and realize that it is just a tool. I need to load my belt with other tools; diet, exercise, and the right mindset.
As I am writing this the song "The Breaking of Day" by Maurette Brown Clark came on the radio-
I can feel the breaking of day, I won't look back, I'll just keep pressing my way. My blessing got to be on it's way. Jesus knows my struggles and my healing is on the way!!!
I accept that as a confirmation. I see myself in the future and I look and feel better.
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Last night I decided to set up my avatar Mii. I chose her name, size, features; I was satisfied. I thought she looked just like me. I proceeded to go through the process of setting up my profile. Next was the balance test, then the weight test.
Next thing I saw gave me a dose of reality. My Mii avatar grew before my eyes. I watched as her weight went from normal to obese. Not just obese, but the top of the Wii obese spectrum. The last straw was the Wii age. It said I was 58. I feel it too, so shamed. I wonder why I let it go so far.
I all of a sudden felt what it it may feel like to be anorexic or at least have body dis-morphia. When I see myself, I see thin. I don't see my xtra large frame in size large clothes. I usually think my clothes shrink, never considered I grew.
This was a wake up call. I need to start now making better decisions. I am glad that I am close to surgery and an important decision to change has been made. Now I need to get the rest of my mind together and realize that it is just a tool. I need to load my belt with other tools; diet, exercise, and the right mindset.
As I am writing this the song "The Breaking of Day" by Maurette Brown Clark came on the radio-
I can feel the breaking of day, I won't look back, I'll just keep pressing my way. My blessing got to be on it's way. Jesus knows my struggles and my healing is on the way!!!
I accept that as a confirmation. I see myself in the future and I look and feel better.
