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Hi Everyone,

I have not been here for a while, as life been very hectic. I have taken a hiatus from writing my thoughts here on the monthly basis, because I felt like I had nothing more to say. Times were rough and the weight went into plateau mode. I stopped losing and got a bit depressed. 
The biggest mistake I've done to cause such a change in my life is to re-introduce bread (crackers, croutons, etc.) Although, the types I've done was wheat based, it was a good quick fill, but not for my well being. I have gotten into them so much, that I've lost track of food I've actually eaten through out the day.  
I stopped my food diary ( which was my heart and soul). It provided me the necessary steps to follow my daily regimen of food and vitamin intake. I think that I rolled off the track board so fast, I got lost in the shuffle. It put me right back to square one, when I had to sit down and re-evaluate the choices I;ve made. 
I'll til' now I am struggling with making that wrong choice, because it became so addictive, due to a nature of it (quick fix), that sometimes I find it hard to resist. Oh demons witin me....Go away and do not come for another century:)))) I tell myself day in and day out that it will be a new day, a better day and that I will make the right choice, but I always fall off the wagon, as usual. At my job there is a lot of temptations and they are within reach...So figure, how someone like me can actually go a day without being tempted....I figured, go by it  and do not look at it, as if it does not exsists...Yeah, right!!!OK, done it all. 
I guess I have to be stronger than this and be patient. I was told once, that if I do not get tempted, then there is something seriously wrong with me. Well, I guess there is not, cause' I get triple tempted and I act upon it. Not good...
Although, I am sayin' all these ugly things, I have managed to loose those stubborn inches and pounds that I have carried on my body for a such long time. I am actually somewhat happy with my appearance, but not the way I feel. I am now almost 10 months out from the date of my surgery, and I have lost a tremendous amount of stubborn fat, which is now gone into various other places:))) I weight in at 189lbs in the morning, when I am totally naked and have not eaten breakfast...Once that part is filled in, meaning when I dress myself and fill my belly with some type of food, I weight in @192.4, WOW...What a jump...Don't u think??? So, what is that tell me, that I need to close my mouth and start getting physical again, because If I do not, I will find myself in the grand mess that started with...and no, no, no....I will not tolerate it this time around. Ok, enough nagging.....I look good and wear some size 16 and some 18...That is quite a change, ha...from 26...Yeap, I will a OK as long as I stay on the right road. This has been more difficult than I though it would be...It is definitely not an easy road or a solution to your weight prorblems...IT IS A TOOL, we can use ti help ourselves, but if we let go of it, the consenquences could be mighty expensive. OK, till' next time everyone, whenever I feel like screaming, I will come herr to chat....So. IM me, email me and provide your prayers and support for GOD to give me strength and devotion to make things better and live my life in full blossom:) Thank you all, for your support.

Hi All,

It has been a month since I've updated my profile. Although, nothing much has happened since the last time, I did experience some difficulty with weight loss. 

I began getting my appetite back and ate quite a bit lately, as I became quite depressed for few weeks. Since then I have picked up my spirits and turned up the heat to come back to a straight line before I find myself  in the situation I was in not too long ago.  I defintely did not want to be there no more. I worked too hard to get where I was and was not about to give in to the demon himself. 

Girls, it is still a fight, regardless of the surgery. Keep on....and do not give into the difficulties a life may bring your way. This is till' the end. 

BE HAPPY!!!

Hi Everyone,

I am back to tell you that so much has happened in the last two weeks.  I am more than happy with the way I look, feel and eat. I am healthy and glowing during these sunny days in Florida . Why, Florida , you ask? Well here is the story of my crazy rendezvous. One morning I got up, packed some clothes for me and my 13 year old and hit the road. I could not stand to be in Boston anymore and needed to get away. I got in my car and drove 1500 miles south to Florida to enjoy my new self and spend my last days of vacation for this year’s summer. Something crazy like this I have only done when I was a beautiful and thin lady back in the days, when I was able to withstand long rides and have patience for the long travel in traffic throughout the south coast. I'll tell you it is hell in the day time and I do not think I will be taking a ride like this any time soon once I come back. 
I have managed to loose another 8 lbs, that is mark for me when I started to really gain weight four years ago. Now I will be losing weight and looking towards a brighter future. I am a little bit worried though at this time, because I am able to eat pretty much anything and in bigger portions, but I am able to put my fork or spoon down just as soon as I am full.  I have never been able to do that before. It is like some kind of mechanism turns on and says no more…JJJ 
 I am very excited to see the end result of my journey in the next months to come. I will be in touch and keep you posted as I keep myself in shape for the New Year of 2008.

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Hello everyone,

I do not have much time anymore to update my profile, but I try my best to fill in the blanks. 
I have been pretty busy around the house with kids and making some big decision about my life and how will I change it to adapt to my new life style. It has been rough to keep up with the changes. Some days seem to be gray and moody, and some days I am happy and alive. I guess it comes with the surgery and the changes you body is going through. 
The hardest part about this, is not being able to make the time to actually cook for yourself. I am always thinking of my kids need and how to make sure that I do not over do it.  I try a little of everything and i tell you, I seem to be good with anything i eat, as long as it is not heavy, fatty, or fried. I can not eat any of these foods at all, nor do I ever want to. My biggest melt down is crunch stuff. I do not know what it is, but I am craving crunchiness and the crackers are doing the thing. I try not to buy it and stay away from it, but when you are out and about with no food at hand, you tend to buy what is available the quickest. Although, I should say I have been quite good compare to pre-surgery days. 
I have managed to loose another 4 lbs and now weight in at 208 lbs. I am happy and psyched, as I have not seen my weight in this range for a long time, at least 4 years. A lot more to go, but it is coming off slowly. I guess I got to get myself on the workout schedule and be persistent and not give into temptations. They definitely still there in the back of your mind to mess with you>>>>>Good luck to all of you.

It has been 2 weeks since I stopped in here and wrote about my jorney. It has been really rough 2 weeks, as I have been nervous wreck. I think it is PMS kicking in and I have been craving some strange things. My biggest craving to hitme as yet....(Chips)...imagine one of the worst you can eat. I have never eaten chips as much at all prior to surgery, but now I find myself picking on it. I think it is the crunch I am looking for. So...long story, short, I started to pick every day on couple of chips, while making food for my kids. I know it is because I have it in the house, but  I can't seem to get rid of it, as they are home more often at this time. 
I feel as though my cravings were caused by higher hormone level, due to my monthly action and I did not have control over it. It satisfied my craving. Has anyone else experienced something like this? I am scared and confused, as I did not know I will be faced with something like this so early in my recovery. Anyone with with any advice? Please help!!!!

Through it all, I still managed to lose weight and I feel great. I am now 212 lbs, which means I have lost another 6 lbs. It is going slowly, but regularly and healthy. I believe that all will work out for me in the battle of cravings and I will manage my cravings in the future days to come. I am patient.

I am now past my 2 months mark and I am feeling excuisite. I have not felt like this in the long, long time. I am wearing nice clothes, I look great and I am actually trying to get some tan this summer. Something I do not usually do or I should say I have not done in the very long time. I was always scared to bare my skin and show my fat rolls in public. Always wore oversized clothes to make me look twice as big that made me feel exremely unattractive. 
Oh, Lord, I thank you for giving me a chance to change myself around and make me a healthy, sexy mama once again. I will never put myself in this situation ever again. I will stick to my diet and my healthy way of eating for as long as I live. 
The Best as yet to come.........I am have lost another 2 lbs. It may not be much, but to me that is an accomplishment. I weigh in at 218 lbs this week and loving it>>>>>>>>

Until next time....... Email me with your comments, questions and words of wisdom.....

I can not believe but 2 months flew by so quick, I have not had a chance to get used to all of the changes in my life. The way I eat, the way I dress and the way I carry myself are some of the most amazing changes ever happened in my life. I no longer walk with my head down, but my head sky high and proud. I eat healthy and do not worry about overeating, because my body is good at giving me signal of fullness. Although I may not be able to eat as much, I have enough to have energy for the day. I am getting more liquids in me this week. I seem to be a lot more thirsty than I have been in the last past weeks. I belive it may be the hot weather we have been experiencing here in Boston. I love it. It gives me the energy to do things with my family and be on the go more often, instead being a couch potato. 

I lost another 3.5 lbs this week, and weigh in at 220 lbs. I have not been this weight since year 2003, so yes it feels great. My husband is amazed at my transformation. I find myself bickering with him more often because of the choice of foods he chooses to eat. I tend to push my diets on him to keep him healthy. He is diabetic and loves to eat. He recently joined the gym and lost 30 lbs so far. I am ecstatic that my changes making a difference in my family's life.  

So long and until next time and BIGGER SUCCESS.

Another week has gone by and I am still struggling with getting my fluids in. I am getting better at eating some more solids, as long as it is soft and smooth. I have tried steamed veggies, yeah!!! It felt so good down. I missed having my veggies. I also tried eating some chicken, and it went through OK. 
This week I weight 223.5 lbs and feel much better. I tend to go out and walk a bit more, although it is very hot outside. One thing I have noticed is that I do not puff and huff anymore as I used to when I walk. I take stairs with pride and not afraid of asthma attacks; I feel great overall. 

Until next time. Post your comments as you wish. Thanks

Well, it is week 6 now. Although I was allowed to advance in my diet, I am still eating like a baby. I have to moosh up everything still, eat slowly, and follow the 4 week blended insteuctions. 

I am hoping for better results in the weeks to come. I am still struggling with my water intake. I never was a big drinker, but now I have to literally force myself to get extra fluids in. 

Weight is not going down, but I feel great. Clothes fit me looser, so will work on getting better results over time.  Will keep you posted as weeks go by.