Post fill blues... lol... and, happy times, too!

Jun 23, 2009

So, it's been a little over a month since I had my 2nd fill and I have to tell you it has been an uphill battle... Not a bad one but definitely uphill... This has been the biggest behavior adjustment since I had my surgery a little over a year ago... The chewing thing is still not under control... I've thrown up several times over the last month from taking a first bite that was too much or not chewing something thoroughly or anything doughy getting stuck (that's my favorite)... It's been awful at those times... Can't eat anything that's to dry or it won't go down...
But, I'm determined... lol... I'm determined to eat the food that I want to eat... I'm willing to negotiate on certain things like more beans, less rice (to dry)... no fried meat, etc... I want to enjoy food!  And, that was my biggest fear when I got this fill- that I wouldn't be able to enjoy food the way I used to... Truth is- I can't.  BUT, I can live with the way I'm enjoying food right now. 
Sometimes I get bummed and annoyed at the tightness because it makes me rethink everything I eat from platanos to salchichon (Dominican food)... lol.. HOWEVER, I've lost somewhere between 8-10 lbs since I've been adjust so I can't complain.  I'm feeling prettier and sexier than I've felt in a very long time... It's crazy!!!  My mom called me a hoochie mama because I've been going so much... LMAO! 
I also hit the gym again- FULL FORCE!!!   Started to run and I'm actually enjoying it... I did my first 5K last week and even though I was the last one to finish on my team- I FINISHED with a 13 min mile!  Go me!!!  Going to the gym at least 4x per week!!!  I'm doing it... I'm motivated right now... I have a goal to lose 11 lbs and I want to achieve that ASAP... After that, we'll see what goal we set...

A little motivation for my fellow OH members:
My point is that this is hard... It's very hard.  But, we can do it... All we have to do is motivate!!!  One of my favorite quotes - "It's supposed to be hard.  If it wasn't hard anyone could do it.  The HARD is what makes it great." (Tom Hanks, A League of their Own)  And, as I've said in my previous blogs, if  you mess up, gain weight, stop going to gym, eat too much, eat "bad" stuff, etc., FORGIVE YOURSELf and keep going. 

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