negrasmommy
Bandwagon? Where are you?
Apr 22, 2010
I've fallen and I can' t get up... Lol... I really have fallen off the bandwagon BIG TIME. I've gained 15 lbs in the last 4-6 months. It's terrible I know... My friends and family have been trying to help me and this has been my reaction -> Lol... It's not funny cuz it's true. I haven't wanted to listen to anyone- been in denial of myself but I can't do it anymore. My clothes don't fit me and I refuse to buy anything larger than a size 12... I WON'T DO IT!!!I am disappointed and disgusted with myself... I don't feel beautiful or sexy right now... I feel like that awful fat girl I used to see in the mirror... And, I know that feeling sorry for myself isn't going to do anything for me. I just need to get this out of me because I am so angry with myself.... Then, I can start refocusing again...
I don't know what the f*** is wrong with me right now... UGH!!! My life is great, well.... It's good. I have a job- not LOVING my job right now but I'm ok here and I'm doing good here. My family is the same as always- WONDERFUL!!! And, I'm in love with a wonderful man (same one from my last post) and we're living together and it's great... So, really, getting it together should be easy for me... ::sigh:: I am my own worst enemy.
My goal is to get it together... So, I can feel and be me, again...
Wish me luck!!!
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About Me
Parsippany, NJ
Location
32.0
BMI
Surgery
06/03/2008
Surgery Date
Apr 15, 2008
Member Since