Surgery Doesn't Fix Your Brain

Jun 01, 2009

So.... I made my goal. I weigh anywhere between 138-142 depending on the day. I do weigh myself almost daily, because I feel its easier to get ahold of 3 or 4 lbs than 10 or 15.

Yes I do eat things I shouldnt.... But... I really try to : stick to the 3 small meals a day, no drinking with the meals, and no bubbly stuff. If I feel I have eaten some no-no's I do some mental calorie counting and try to compensate.

I'm still not exercising, I do need to change that. But I've done 2 walk-a-thons ....so that's progress.

Its funny, I think the weightloss is sorta like peeling off my layers of protection... of defense mechanisms...
My life sux because I'm fat... I'm single because I'm fat... If only I lost weight I would be happy...

wrong. i still have self esteem issues... different than before, yet sorta the same.
i'm still single..............and guess what? it's not because i'm fat... who KNOWS why it is, lol
but..........we can't blame all the ills of the world on being fat.
yes......society totally treats me differently
yes....i get wayyy more attention from men
but......how much of it is weightloss and how much of it is my increased self esteem? (can u imagine how low it was if im staying i still have esteem issues?)

anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... the surgery doesnt fix your head... if you had issues before weightloss surgery, you will have issues after.. and you had better have a support system or a therapist to explore them.
i finally feel like im getting to the bottom of my issues..........obesity was only a detractor, i think.

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