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Well, what a journey!!  I will have to post new photos.  That is really the only way I ever see that I've lost weight is by actually looking at myself in photos ..

I'm down 97lbs and very excited!  I'm the new store manager of SIMPLY FASHION FOR WOMAN.. a woman's retail clothing store.  I shop shop shop now.. lol.  Instead of eat, eat, eat.. ha!

Thank you, everyone for the incredible journey!

Annette ([email protected])

Well, I haven't put anything on here in quite some time.  I deleted EVERYTHING I had on here from day one.... now I"m mad I did that.

What a journey this has been.  I think I'm just getting over a deep depression that I've had since surgery.  It's still "there" but not as bad.  I was regretting having the surgery.. but I'm sure it was because I was in and out of the hospital. I ended up with a fistula and just started eating food again (my surgery was 3/25/08 with Randall Baker, MMPC, Grand Rapids).  

A couple of weeks ago I was diagnosed with an ulcer. Every single time I would eat something I'd vomit.. and that would be soooo painful.  As long as I take the medication I'm ok. If I miss or skip it, I'm miserable.  So I'm not sure if the ulcer is getting better.

When I started this journey I weighed 273. Today I weighed in at 210.  Wow. I'm so excited. The worst part is that I don't see it... I do if I look at photos, but that's about it. I look in the mirror and I still see the "really fat me".. so upsetting.  The surgeon said it will be a long time before "I" notice the weight loss, even though others see it.  Hmm... that doesn't help the depression.

I went to the foot doc today and the girl I talk to when I go in there (the receptionist). said "annette?" I said "yep". she was like "WOW.. I had to look to see if I had a new patient this morning, you look soooo different, you've lost A LOT OF WEIGHT". I was SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT.  LOL  Then the doc came in and said "wow, kiddo, you look wonderful".. ha!

So.. here I am...3 months post op and I think I'm finally getting my head on straight.  

I still have a problem eating some things and still crave sweets. I give in once in a while, not often, then I have dumping and remember why I dont want sugar :-)

Now if I could just wrap  my brain around the fact that I "really am" losing weight... I keep shopping for size 3 x when I really (right now) need the 18's.. not easy.. a 3x, 2x or even a 1x is just that.. but go to the 18's.. they are all different.. and I was always so "comfortable" in my big clothes.. now I am being told I have a figure.. weird...

More to come...