Newlifeagain
Happy...and sad too. What do I do??
Nov 01, 2010
I can't believe that I didn't post at least once in October. I guess it was a very busy month.Well...here I am. I'm 3 1/2 months post-op after BL and left arm brachio revision. I'm mostly happy with the breast lift. It was a good experience - not much pain to make note of at all. It was a pretty easy recovery. Both breasts have "settled" and dropped into place. They look SO much better than before, but although I honestly am not a knit-picky person, I still wish that they looked a little more natural - not quite as boxy. Also, I didn't have implants so going in I knew that they would not have the "perfect" look and honestly, I didn't really want a perfect look - just a natural look. But truly, I do like them A LOT! I love the way I look in my bras and tops. I love not having to push and tuck them in my bras. I love not having to bend over and try to make sure that the "former" tubes were "sitting" in right. I love not feeling that itchy feeling because there was moisture in between the "folds". Oh yes, there is a lot to love about having the lift!!! I'm so thankful that I was approved for it, even though there were other issues that were at the root of me being able to have this done. All is well in the end! Thank You Jesus! :)
Now the left arm is quite another story altogether. I'm not happy here at all. My surgeon and I just don't know what the issue is. This is the 2nd "Revision" for pete's sake!!! Why can't this arm cooperate??? It's still a little over an 1" larger than the right arm. I just don't get it. I know that I'm told to still give it some time, but with my experience, I already KNOW that it's done what it's going to do and it is not going down any smaller. I am SO disappointed with this. My surgeon has been so great and he's determined to get it the same size as my right arm. I have to admit that I'm a little apprehensive to keep messing with it - even as badly as I want it to be the same size also. I've seen where there are times when patients have had issues with Lymphodema after having surgery in the upper body. Something about the lymph glands not flushing the fluids out of the body and becoming a long term issue. As much as I don't want to say it, I'm wondering if this is a "leave well enough alone" situation. I would be devastated to have something go wrong and end up battling the lymph gland problem. What I'm going through now would be nothing compared to dealing with that type of problem. So what do I do????? Lord help me with this. My desire (with a great possibility) is to get married soon, and the dress that I'd like to wear is gorgeous. One of the things that I loved is the sheer wrist length sleeves. The size of my arms will definitely be noticable and especially if one is larger than the other. I don't want to find another dress. My mom loved that dress when I showed it to her just prior to her passing away. It's heart-breaking enough that she won't be there - especially since she's the actual person who brought my love and I together. Now to NOT be able to wear the dress would hurt me even more. I must move away from this conversation for now. I'll revisit later - after my appt. with my surgeon this coming up Thursday. I pray for a great report.
Ok, I'm determined more than ever to get these last few pounds off of this body. I'm increasing my protein intake through shakes. I'm going to try to do 2 each day. I was reading something that one of my OH friends wrote last week. She said that even with increased exercise, the way to truly help with getting those pounds off is to definitely watch the carb intake and increase the protein intake. That's exactly what I'm going to do. Perhaps finally by Christmas, I can say that I finally met my goal. :)
Overall, I wouldn't trade that last 6 years for anything. It's truly been a blessing to have good health, while feeling and looking good! Hallelujah! I thank God for guiding me to make this decision everyday. I have NEVER looked back. Oh there have been times when I've felt a little tired (as in right after surgery going through the whole adjustment thing), but I've never regretted my decision for one second - that I can remember!!! My true goal and endeavor is to stay in a place of good health, and never go backwards. I have to challenge my mind everyday to do the right thing, and that includes eating correctly, drinking correctly, moving my body when it doesn't feel like it, taking my vitamins, and keeping a very positive mind-set and outlook on everything - especially my future. I want to be, first and foremost, a success; and secondly a great encouragement to those who are in the place (and body type) that I used to be in. I totally understand their delimna, their emotions, their struggle, and their determination to get to a better health and life! My prayers are with YOU! God bless you!
Always remember, as I do, that Today is our BEST day! Yesterday is gone, and tomorrow is not promised. What we do in this day...Today is what will create our future results...good or bad!
Much love and blessings to all,
Rose
