Has it been 'THAT' long since I updated? Hmmm... =/

Mar 10, 2011

So then....here I am....updating my profile.  I guess, I've been a bit bombed out lately.  I just had my 57th birthday - WITHOUT MY MOM!  She's been in Heaven for 9 months now.  My emotions are all over the place right now.  I miss her as if she's been gone for years, yet I feel like it was only yesterday that I spoke with her last.  The emotions of grief does not always make sense!  I realize  that I will NEVER stop missing her, but I do wish that my heart would start to feel better.  It always feels like it's breaking!

On another topic, I'm still doing post-op visits with my surgeon for my left arm.  Another let down.  I just don't know what to do about this arm continually healing larger than the right arm.  At this point, it's STILL about 1 1/4" larger than my right arm.  Although I see the frustration on my surgeon's face, he continues to encourage me that he will not give up until it's right.  I must say that it's very 'noticable', otherwise I'd just say 'leave it alone and I'll live with it'.  He knows how disappointed I am with the whole thing.    BUT, if he won't give up on my arm, then I sure as heck shouldn't! 

As far as the BL goes, all is well there.  I didn't get any augmentation, so it's all my own flesh.  I do believe that a little more "fullness" would have looked better, and lifted the nipples to a bit perkier stance, but  I didn't have enough fat to push up and accomplish that feat.  Overall, the 'after' is amazingly beautiful compared to the 'before'.  I don't have to shake, shift, and adjust to get the girls into the cups any longer.  They just 'sit' right in place and it's a done deal!  I just LOVE it!!!  Also, what can I say about going bra-less in tee shirts.  OMG!  I just love it!  I don't even need to wear a bra at all.  They sit so nicely.  Now I'm not one to GO bra-less......but if I did, I COULD!    I just love them.  Thank You, Dr. "M"! 

Oh my, I can't believe that I'm already coming up on my 7th year!  Yep, that's right.  I had my Rny  August 9, 2004.  Thank You Jesus!!!  This has been an amazing journey.  It was the best thing that could have happened to me!  I totally feel that I am a great success.  I lost a total of 176 pounds.  I haven't been over-weight all of my life, so I am VERY happy to have lost enough weight to gain my good health back after years of being a super morbidly obese woman!  While I'd still love to loose a few more pounds, right now I'm in awesome shape.  I exercise 4 to 5 days a week and feel great!  I love the size(s) I'm in - 8 -14 (mostly 12's) depending upon the designer.  Isn't that crazy though?   But almost EVERYONE thinks I'm way smaller and speaks often of me being "skinny".  Sshhh...come closer... ...I think it's the collars bones and neck muscles showing!  But, hey...I'll take  ALL the compliments!    Seriously though, this is the happiest (and healthiest) I've been in years, and I thank God for His wonderful Blessing!  At the end of the day, I Very happy in my skin - wrinkles and all!!!!  Even my wrinkles are healthy now. 

God bless you all - everyone of you!  I pray that those who are seeking to gain control of your good health, that God will grant you success - no matter what stage of this journey you now find yourself - beginning, middle, or end!  Hmmm???  Is there ever really truly an end stage???    To be continued.......

God bless and I love you all!
Today is my Best day - that's my stand and I'm sticking with it! 
Hugs... ~ Rose

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