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Wow, it's been a long time since I've written. Things are going great. I'm more confident/happy now then I have ever been in my life. My personality has changed from quiet..to bubbly. I love the changes in me. Having WLS has been the best decision I've made in my life. I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for the WLS. Probably still in horrid back pain day in and out. Though my back problems will never go away, they are much easier to tolerate now that I've lost over 100lbs. Today we are going to put the Christmas tree up. Thanksgiving was great. I've so much to be thankful for in life I don't know where to start.
Well, I'm off to watch a movie now. God Bless.

Gall bladder issues.. blah blah blah! Before surgery we found out I had gall stones due to an ultra sound I was required to have. Why oh why my gall bladder was not removed is a question I'd still like to know. I'm not seeing Dr. Shina anymore for follow up care, I see my PCP. Anyhow. Dairy has always bothered me since surgery. I attributed that to surgery. The past couple of weeks I've had bad stomach pains. One night, Easter night to be exact, my husband to me out to eat at Texas Road House. I was eating the egg and cheese off of their salad, about three bites in, I had the most aweful stomach pain I've ever had. The most aweful. Trip to ER, ultra sound the next day, in with the surgeon by that Friday. Surgery scheduled for the following Wednesday. The Friday before the Wednesday came more aweful pain.. this time pain didn't stop, all night.. tried to go to work.. went to ER from work.... Friday I was admitted, Saturday Gall Bladder OUT, home on Sunday. All in All.. THANK the LORD that experience is behind me.. and if you have gall stones, insist your gall bladder be removed during surgery. Trust me, you don't want gall stone pain. It was aweful.

I made it to the 100 pound loss mark! I am SO happy! :) I can't stop smiling all week. I hit my goal during the week! Yippee!

It's been a journey for sure. I am so pleased with the results of my surgery. My weight (as I've said before) loss slowed for the winter. Now that spring is rearing it's head I'm losing 1.5 lbs a week again. Though, a trip to the ER and lots of IV fluids made me gain 8lbs. I was upset with that but that's all gone now :)  I've been more active in the garden -- finishing the winter cleanup. My crocus and daffodils are blooming. I love it! My hyancinths are coming up nicely and I've discovered that those hyancinth bulbs mulitply. I planted three last year and now I have 8 blooms coming up.
I have 40lbs to go now. I need to have my wedding rings sized again in a bad way. I was able to shop at Old Navy. I can wear their XL t-shirts and they make me look normal. I am a little concious of the extra skin starting to show but I'm ok with that anyday. So now my official shirt size is 14 and my bottom size is 18. I've got a big butt. LOL. The 18s are getting to big so I'll be in 16s soon enough. I can see my collar bone. Wow was that cool. I'm doing gentle stretching every day to help me limber up. Since I'm prohibited from weight bearing excersize I really enjoy the equine activities. There is nothing more satisfying than walking along a beautiful trail in the spring while the trees are budding and the birds are singing. Plus, the workout of grooming and tacking and bathing really help with getting into shape. That is good cardio. And fun.. what more can you ask for out of a workout right?
In other news my bloodpressure is usually 95/60, which is way down from the 140/90 it was pre surgery. The level of fat in my blood is way down too. My six months labs did show a pretty good vitamin D deficiency but I've been supplimenting and I have my next labs March 28. I'll post to see if the suppliments working. I still stay thirsty most of the day.. like I just can't get enough fluids. Dr. says that this is no cause for concern as long as I'm getting my water in. I went through a rough spot where I was getting constant bladder infections but that has passed too. You'd think my anxiety disorder would be subsiding now that I'm not as depressed etc.. not exactly. I still have the mini attacks sometimes and last week I had a major one. They've double my dose of celexa so I'm hoping that keeps them at bay forever. It's no fun feeling like you are going to die. There's been some major family emergencies that contributed to the attack too. The last major attack I had was just before surgery while they were putting me to sleep.
Ah, American Idol is back in full swing. One of my favorite shows along with The Vampire Diaries.
Looking back over the last 9 months I would do it all again in a heartbeat.
Much Love. I'll try to blog again soon.
Sharon.

I'm sorry, but I do not beleive that this will stretch the pouch. Nut and Doc and several other sources say that it does make the food "slurpy" and will pass through pouch quicker / possibly making you hungry quicker. However, I don't really get hungry. Most of the time when I really think about it, it is head hunger or thirst. I'm staying in my 800-1200 calorie range perday, getting my vitamins and protein in.. and I drink with my meals. I can't help it. I really can't. I get very thirsty when i eat. I always have. I told my doc/nut months before hand I would have a very hard time following that rule, and they warned me that it could make me want to eat sooner. I think I'm doing ok and my weight loss is at a normal pace. So, I'm happy with it. I constantly read on the boards how everyone thinks this is evil but honestly I don't think there is anything wrong with it. Everyone has a different body/chemistry/etc.. so what's good for me isn't necessarily what's good for others. Maybe I'm not going to comment on those posts anymore. That's probably the best thing.

I made it past the 75lb mark. My weight loss has slowed WAY down.  I know it's because it's the winter time and I'm not near as active. I'm still losing .5 - 1 lb per week. Boy, I've discovered I can eat sugar, only about 10-12 g per time. My next goal is 100lbs. I think once the spring time gets here and I'll be back in the garden and out horse riding, the weight will come off quickly. I dearly miss milk. So much. It's hard. I miss mashed potatoes. This is not a woe is me post. I would not trade this surgery for anything in the world. Much love!
Sharon.

Yeah! I am down 51lbs now!!! I am so glad! I just keep telling myself that the next 50 will be gone and I'll be so much closer to my goal weight!!! The girls are shrinking and I'm a tad upset about that. Though plastics are in my future, it's hard to watch my body change shape so drasticly. I've not been good about taking before/after photos. I really don't like to look at myself before.. really I still don't like to look at myself. Hopefully that will change soon. I've been horseback riding so much and I'm so glad I'm able to do so!!! It's great excersize. :) Hope all is well with everyone!!

I'm addicted to carb master yogurt. It's my breakfast most days. I've discovered I do actually like beef jerky. I never did before. The chocolate cravings are back. I have discovered sugar free goodies. They are expensive but so worth it.

Many people are telling me how different I am looking. I don't see it yet. I still feel just as fat as ever. My back is feeling so much better since I've lost weight though. That makes me feel all warm and cozy inside.

I've been horseback riding a lot. Tacking up the horses and grooming them in this heat is a big workout..

I feel like alls I do is drink water all day long. I still don't pee much. My pee still is dark and stinky. One day I drank over 100 oz of water and only peed once. I don't get it. I'm going to ask the doctor about it on my three month follow up.

I have really been craving some steak but boy oh boy am I nervous to try it. I've discovered I really LOVE fajita innards. I have been eating off the same fajita innards leftover for 2 days. I tried lettuce, it went down just fine. Which is a great thing for me b/c I've been craving some salad.

I still think about food all the time. Though I still don't get hungry, food is on my mind. Maybe I need therapy. Who knows.

This is an amazing complicated journey. I didn't think it would be like this -- even after all the research I did. But, no regrets and I am happy about it.

Much Love!
Sharon.

Wow, it was a stressful week. Got sick off of broccoli cheddar soup on one day and roasted turkey from Arbys another day. Yuk. Feeling good right now though. I seem to be stuck going up two lbs and down two lbs for the past week. I just really need to throw the damned scale out! I've got loads of laundry to put up. We're going to pick up the dining set today. Tomorrow we are going to see our friends newborn. Busy Busy Busy. And, I'm feeling tired. I woke up after about six hours of sleep. I was wide awake and now all of the sudden I'm exhausted. I feel like I could sleep another eight hours. It's too hot out.. Way too hot!! Hope all is well with everyone!

I'm not really having any. I know that some times I think, hmmm a slice of bacon or sausage would be good. The thought goes away just as quickly as it came. I don't really have the same relationship with food as I did before. I literally have to make myself eat. I forget if I don't keep a constant eye on the time. I'm going on 3 weeks post op and the Dr. says I can start solid foods and the only thing I've tried so far is a 1.5 oz peice of grilled chicken. I do need to go to the store so maybe I will pick up some sausage and some bacon. Who knows... I may hate them. I can tell you before that those were two of my most favorite breakfast foods. I'm really wondering about trying cold cereal again. Mostly empty calories and carbs that I don't need.

I'm still having some moderate pain on my left side. about a 5 on a 1-10 scale. It's getting old. I don't really think I'm over doing it. I don't feel a knot underneath the incision or anything. I think I will call my Dr. in the morning to see if this is normal.
I'm still very tired all the time. I sleep about 11-12 hrs per night. It's just like before though because i still feel very tired during the day. Maybe I will have that sleep study done.

Today along with my protein and vitamins I only ate 1/4 cup egg beaters and 1 oz of string cheese. I just didn't feel like eating. I'm drinking a ton of water and I'm thinking that is what's keeping me full. I know it is important to stay hydrated so water and protein are my main concerns right now.

Hopefully I will start to crave food again soon.

We are planning a cook out at our house this Saturday and Sunday. I go back to work on Tuesday. I am nervous. There will be so much to do and I don't know if I feel up to it yet. We'll see.