niesienoo
I was raised in a muslim family where food was always the centre of everything. You're sad - you eat. You're happy - you eat. You're cross - you eat. And food was always delicious - curries, stews, pastries, cakes, chocolate, creamcakes...the list is endless....and very little exercising. I am the youngest of 5 and was horribly teased. I have to add that my family doted on me as I was so much younger than the other 4. At school though, I was so badly teased, I started making up stories to get people to like me. Or to scare the boys from being mean to me - you know, my dad is this and he can do that...etc etc. Anyway, after endless diets and slimming pills and potions, all advocated by my mum and sisters, I still gained weight. At about 90kg, I finished high school and went off to university away from home. What a shock - i had to walk everywhere, I had to budget so ended up eating like nothing. And of course I lost weight - loads and loads. Then in 1997 I met Zayn - and it was immediate love. Well, as I was studying and Zayn was a working man, he wined and dined me, and of course I piled on the weight again. We got married in 1999, and it was downhill from there....hehehhehehe...in terms of my weight of course. I then went on the have 2 lovely boys, Xavier and Noah, and after each one struggled to get my weight down again. I have been on pretty much every gimmick and potion and slimming pill. I have tried most fo the slimming clubs, but with nothing do maintain my weight loss. I try to explain it to Zayn - or just myself when I talk to myself ....yeah, crazy I know, and the thing is I dont feel full after a normal amount of food. I love food - I love binge eating. I often eat so so much that my tummy aches for hours after. I never throw up, which in itself syas something....not sure what...hehehe I fell and slipped a disc in May2007 and that was just the final straw. Before that I had tried to take up swimming and had done well - I lost 16 pounds and felt good. But now I have been off sick from work since then and have of course piled on weight again. I believe my sleeve will be the tool to get me started. I believe it will help me lose enough weight to get me going again - to maybe learn to ride a bike, or to go for powerwalks. I dont want to be fat forever. I dont want to struggle with food for ever. I just want to be normal.
