My sleeve has a personality of its own

Apr 17, 2015

My stomach has really changed.  I used to like spicy food and now my sleeve is sensitive to spices, peppers and onions.  I enjoy bananas, peanut butter, beef jerky, but still have a hard time with white chicken meat.  So I usually have a chicken thigh instead.  I really like beans, didn't really care for them before, but now they are satisfying and my stomach doesn't object.  Its been almost 6 mos. since my surgery and I have lost 91 pounds.  Its hard to wrap my head around that.  I love that I can move around easier, fit into so many clothes, and bend and reach without much effort.  I can care for myself without much effort too.  I actually look in the mirror now instead of avoiding it.  I do have a lot of loose skin and I'm looking older, my 13 month old nephew even grabs at the skin (my turkey neck).  That's actually a first. I used to have such a fat face, it was puffed all the way down to my chest, no real neck.  I hope my body will tighten up a bit, but I can see the necessity for plastic surgery. 

I'm a week shy of six months, I really hoped that I would be at the 100 pound mark.  But I'm close.  Sometimes I feel like I'm dreaming it all and I'm going to wake up and be my fat self again.  I have weird dreams about drinking pepsi and in my dream, I am panicking because I'm breaking the rules!  I had a dream about eating potato chips and woke myself up.  I guess old habits live on in my dreams, but not in my reality.  This weight loss, is oh too good!!!  I need to focus and keep losing while my window of opportunity is here. 

My surgeon thinks my goal should be 180 pounds, since I have never been under 200 pounds as an adult person.  I am at 218 now, and I think that I could go even lower.  My personal goal is 150, I hope that is attainable for me.  Time will tell.  I can see how the excess skins really becomes a factor.  I hope you are doing well. 

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