NNicholas
I really never, ever thought I would be able to post this:
Jul 06, 2009
I have always included in my blog my replies to posts which I think will benifit others. This is a subject I never though I would ever be able to post but here it is:Please bare with me here, I am baring here in public something I have not been able to tell in open forum before. I think, though, that it is something that has to be told to help you, and others, out. After about 10 months and 180 lbs lost My system was so screwed up that I was a wreck. I was confused as well as depressed. My emotions were all screwed up. I was reacting to things in ways that I never had before. I would have emotions over things that I knew didn't matter to me, but still I was reacting to them. I didn't know what was going on with me, I just knew I was losing it.
I began to do all sorts of things that weren't me. One of the uncharacteristic things I did was I began to try and race my weight loss. I limited water intake so that I could be a few ounces lower when weighing myself each day. I reduced the already small meals I was eating. I lost all sense of reality. I knew I was thinking and doing things I normally would never think or do.
Now when you sit down and contemplate which pistol you intend to place in your mouth and what angle to hold the gun at, your are past messed up. Fortunately, my actions began to show up in medical tests. the internist and the psychologist at the hospital weight loss center, through which I had my surgery, both became alarmed. I was so malnourished, and dehydrated my BP would drop over 40 points between standing and sitting. They had me hospitalized and placed on suicide watch.
Now, when you are evaluated and prepared for having weight loss surgery they can not, really, ever, prepare you for what emotional swings may occur as a result of the hormonal imbalances that can occur. I was told there could be some emotional stress, but I have never been an emotional guy, so I just brushed it off as "yeah right, I'm no wimp." As my body began to return to normal so did I. Looking back it seems like it was a different person.
My suggestion is that if you are having emotional stresses please talk to a therapist and see your doctor. In time the stresses will pass as your hormone levels return to normal, but, it really does help to get assistance in dealing with it.
If anyone ever wishes they may PM or email me. Painful as it is for me to remember my experience of going through that, I will do what I can to ease anyone hitting a rough spot on their journey. Remember, not everyone has this extreme of chemical imbalance caused by weight loss, and we all react differently to any imbalances, but all of us do balance out and return to normal.
Nick
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Oxford, MI
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35.4
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Surgery
03/25/2008
Surgery Date
Nov 22, 2008
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