I am going to be 40 this year.  I have been heavy most of my adult life.  Back when I was a teenager, I thought I was so big, so fat.  I think I weighed about 140 lbs.  But all of my friends were tiny petite girls 100lbs or less.  I gradually started to put weight after I got my drivers license when I was 17.  That was when I stopped walking everywhere and started driving.  The lbs just starting creeping on, and on.  Then I gained about 70lbs with my 1st pregnancy when I was 20, I still am trying to lose that plus a bunch more.  I didn't really gain too much with my next too babies- they are 2 & 3, I was already so heavy.  I want to be able to run with them, play with them, be there for them, all 3 of them.  My oldest is 19 and I feel like we grew up together a bit.  He has always been my biggest supporter and still is.  I split with their Dad a year ago.  He was not supportive of me and sabotaged me every chance he got.  He still tries to do that now, always bringing large amounts of goodies for the kids when he visits, usually stuff he knows I don't like to keep in the house.  I have learned to send it home with him or to throw it out.  
My youngest is a girl, she is almost 3, she is on the chunky side and I want to be able to be a good role model for her, I want her to be healthy and I do not want her to have a poor self image.  Both of my boys are thin, but I want to them to be healthy too.   I have taken care of everyone else forever, my ex, my oldest and the babies.  The kids still need me but they need a healthy me. 
I decided to make this year "the year of Noelle". 

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West Islip, NY
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11/24/2008
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May 30, 2006
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