wishing for this to happen sooner

Sep 13, 2009

Funny how for years I have been fighting being Fat.  Now I have a surgery set up for Oct. 25th and want it sooner.   No matter how I try I cant get a cancelation.   I can only hope I guess.   I feel sort of embaressed about this whole thing, somewhat of failure.  Because I tell myself that it is only fat and your just lazy for not losing it.  Go to the gym, eat less, have some will power fat ass.    I have to tell myself if it were only that easy..................   Getting excited and nervous wondering how I will look after.  Wonder if I will need surgery on my skin or will I snap back and grace the cover of GQ.   I wonder If i will change,  what will I do with all my energy.  Lots of thoughts, lots of thoughts.   Need to find a local friend.   Any suggestions.

Thanks
Greg
9/14/09  0910

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oriskany, NY
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10/28/2009
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Jun 12, 2009
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