nomorejigglybits
I can't belive this has happened.
Jul 06, 2009
I just wanted to take time and reflect on the last three months. I started my pre-op diet April 10th 2009 with the idea in my head that I would try my best and if I didn't get to my goal weight, then at least I would be healthier. I originally wanted an RNY, in fact, I had my heart set on it and was DEAD SET against a lap-band. I wanted to loose all this weight and I wanted to do it quick. I talked my Dr into it, even though he was strongly suggesting a lap-band (because of my age and I have three small kids, etc). Fast forward to the pre-op testing and the EGD confirmed my worst fear...gastric ulcers. This ruled out the RNY and I was devastated. I cried and cried and was mad and upset and really just threw a good ol' fashion temper tantrum. I got over it. I got on OH and I got on the Lap-band board. By the next week I okay with it and by my surgery I was excited about it. I am not an overly religious person, but I am spiritual and I believe that fate/God/divine being works in mysterious ways. In fact, if you take time to follow the signs, the best choices are made for you. I know that doesn't make any sense, but I feel like those damn gastric ulcers saved me from a bad choice. I can honestly say that I have thrown myself into this new lifestyle. I have given it my ALL and everyday I thank heaven that I did this for myself. Never in my life have I been as proud of MYSELF as I am right now. It's hard to be proud of yourself when you are morbidly obese. Even if you have accomplished great things with your family, career, financially, it is still hard to look at yourself in the mirror. I have three of the most beautiful children in the world, and my career is great, but it wasn't enough. I felt like a failure because I couldn't get control of myself.As of today, I have lost 57lbs. I am 37 lbs away from the coveted "onederland". I am very close to being a size 14. Not only that, but I am doing things that I haven't done in years. I have slid down water slides, sang karaoke, and worn a sundress out in public. I feel invincible and this is the best feeling in the world. I hope that in two more months I will be writing something this positive again. I am POSITIVE that I will reach my goal and I think I will reach it within a year. I am on my way to finding myself under all this fat that I have surrounded myself with. I am proud. I am excited. I am sure. And the best part is...I can see my new self (body and soul) reflected in my children's eyes. And I know that this journey is just starting. Later this month I will ride a roller coaster for the first time in over 10 years. It just keeps getting better and better.
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About Me
Grand Prairie, TX
Location
47.3
BMI
Surgery
04/23/2009
Surgery Date
Nov 20, 2008
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