Stupid paranoia

Apr 25, 2009

And it is stupid. It's beyond stupid. And I should probably slide the scale as far under the bed with my foot as I can possibly get it so that getting it out with abdominal pain is an issue.

Because I keep weighing myself and, nothing. Drinking water, taking supplements, I'm practically on a starvation diet, and nothing.

AND I KNOW BETTER. Because I'm bloaty from surgery, and my body is trying to stay healthy and heal and not worrying about dropping weight. But I still can't help but sit here and think, but so and so and that person lost weight right after surgery!

And I think it's worse because I feel relatively good. I posted from my cell phone the day of my surgery. I'm hopping up out of bed no problem. I am on track today for taking all my supplements and am raring to start protein next week. I am starting to slowly feel like nothing changed. Like maybe they just cut into me and left everything like it was supposed to be.

AND I KNOW BETTER. I just need to mellow out and let it handle itself like I know it will.

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