It's official...May 22nd! Surgery Date!

May 09, 2012

After going back and forth about it being the last week of my son's school, I took the date.  He will go on Monday and i hope to return home Thursday, so he can go and see all his friends on Friday.   I was really frustrated about not getting my meal replacement along with my husband missing work and no longer having leave for me to have surgery and then he said of all things he was waiting on me to give him the date! There is so much to this story but I won't bore you with my life difficulties. So, he will have to ask for unpaid leave which is fine by me....I'm so ready to have this done. 

Last week, I had a trip to the hospital which was totally unexpected but when you go to the doctor and say you're having chest pain, at my weight, she put me into the hospital to be monitored overnight.  My husband also found me an allergist to finally figure out why I've had Hives for the last six months. I am starting to believe it's more likely STRESS but in a way I hope he finds something so I can get better and stop itching and taking steriods.  So, he's done a boatload of bloodwork and will find out after my surgery.   Andmy heart is fine so I'm good to go!

So, last night after talking with my Mom, I told her I had a date and she was skeptical.  I know she's scared and really worried something could happen...but after my struggles this week with the hospital, bloodwork and also the realization I had to have a scooter to get around the water park we went to over the weekend.  YES, IT'S MY TIME!!  I do have some resentment because I feel like she doesn't take me and my priorities serious.  That it's all about when its convenient for her.  I will say I know she was tired and had been at the hospital all day with my aunt who was having shoulder surgery.....but I honestly wanted to scream and say she has 4 children, let them run her back and forth to rehab, worry about ME for once.   And honestly I know she does.....she's more worried though about me having the surgery than me dying from being this overweight??  I don't get her sometimes.....I just have to digress and know we will come together and it will all work out.    I need to let this resentment go of how I never felt good enough.    *sigh*

Really hungry on day 1.....ready for my protein shake!  

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