nykol H.
Im not sure where my story really begins... Growing up I was never horribly over weight I was always the chubby girl. You know the one that everyone was friends with because you felt bad for them, yet there was always kids bigger than myself that always seemed happier with themselves and had true lasting friends...
Growing up I thought I was pretty active I played Basketball for 8 years, Volleyball for a few year in Middle School, then found Color Gaurd and fell in love with it and yet some how in the mix I started gaining more weight in high school and I wasnt that Chubby Kid no more I was becoming the Fat kid... Family Holidays seemed to become the worst and everyone started taking punches at my weight. All of my Aunts found ways to make me feel akward they would buy the hideous sweater or purpose buy something to small and make sure the recipet was in the box in an envelope... I stopped going to visit family stopped talking to alot of friends and now I just work and come home..
My grandma I have to say is the only person that never took jabs at my weight she constantly tried helping me and everytime I tried to loose weight id gain it all back and then some. This continued for about 4 years after high school, I just gave up and suddenly my weight stabalized and I was sorta comfortable but I met my son father and had my handsom little boy. I eventually lost my pregnancy weight had my gallbladder removed and was down 40lbs from the heaviest I was just before my son was born...
My world came crashing down when my Grandma passed away and I let myself go I suddenly had lost my best friend unexpectedly. I didnt know what to do, didnt know who to talk to nothing and found myself comforted with food. She was the only person who believed in me and constantly tried to talk to me about weight loss surgery and I constantly said I dont need it I can do it on my own.
Ive come to the realization I cant do it on my own. I do need Help. I have a Child now who needs their Mom in their Life. I think I have finaly discovered who I am inside and now I want that person to be on the outside now.. I do not want to hide behind food anymore I want to get out start doing some 5k and eventually 10ks and who knows maybe a half marathon. Ive always to run and be in marathons but was to embarassed about my weight but Im ready to Break FREE and DO IT..
I cant wait to start my new Journey and Live the Life I want to Live!!!
