Nsg4Him
Life Changes
Feb 26, 2010
My husband, the love of my life, my best friend, my biggest supporter, passed away November 19, 2009. I did all this for him. So we would have a long life together. So we could be healthy...together. Now I am having a difficult time caring. I suspended my support group for several months and even thought about abandoning it completely. I probably would have if I hadn't gotten about a gazillion telephone calls from preops looking for a support group. So I had one a couple of weeks ago. Part of me felt like a fraud since I have gained 30 pounds back and have little desire to get back on the bandwagon at this time. I am apathetic at best. Possibly, motivation will come back to me, but grief can be pretty overwhleming. If anyone thinks, "Well, she just needs to pick herself up by her bootstraps and get straightened out",They have never lost someone they REALLY loved. This loss is devastating me. It has been 3 months and I still can barely function. Last night was the first full night's sleep I have gotten in over 8 months. Anyway, I am trying to make a few baby steps back, but I know better than try to do too much or I will be overwhelmed and not try at all. I have too many decisions as it is. So I am taking it slow.
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About Me
Sevierville, TN
Location
30.1
BMI
Surgery
12/21/2007
Surgery Date
Jun 16, 2002
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