5 years out ...10/28/09-14 I'm more scared now than before

Oct 27, 2014

Well its 5 years since my WLS....I'm more scared now than I was then.  I have gained weight now upto 190 ..yes I put it out there for the world to see. 

Now I know Ive said it before and ill say it again, its time to to get refocued, eating more protien, stop making excuses to  work out.

 

I have been given a Gift by God and I don't want to seem unthankful for that gift.  I need to put me first when it comes to my Weight loss since I'm the one that went under the knife.  I saw my WLS Coordinator (she's not doing it anymore) who is a registered nurse and was the lead for the WLS Program. She has gained back all her weight..and it scared me because she headed the program and it happened to her ... my coworker also had it the same week I had mine and she too has gained back all of her weight and then some.  I don't want to head that route. I know I'll never be 147 again but to be a healthly 165 can work. I just hope next year on my 6 anniversary I'm not 200 pounds

 

 

 

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4 Years Ago Today I had WLS /RNY - I Gotta get back on TRACK

Oct 28, 2013

4 Years Ago Today I had WLS /RNY - I Gotta get back on TRACK

 

I got down to 145... now back up to 183.. GOD Gave me a gift I have to do better to show appreciation for this gift

 

I want to show I appreciate it and worthy of it..

 

Stay FOCUSED 

 

I may not get back to 145 but 160 is ATTAINABLE by March

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WHAT HAS Happend to me ???

Sep 23, 2013

I feel like the prodigal son returning to this site...hoping some one will embrace me !!! It has been almost 1 year since I've been up here !!! and Going out of control !!!  Since my last post I have gained 14 pounds...I don't know what to do ... let me take some

responsibility/accountability

1- I eat too much

2 I eat too late

3 not exercising enough

4 I snack too much

5 not eating enough protein

True my life has changed I cook more and eat with my husband who has a late schedule, I care for my mom and so I'm back to eating on the run..(no fast food because I still don't eat beef, pork or chicken or turkey) But still will eat a bag of chips in stead of a healthy meal.   

My fear is I'll be 262 pounds again .. I need help  !!! please keep me encouraged and I'll be on this site now more often so I can keep my self motivated too.  I'm going back to read those first few weeks to.....so I can see what I went thru to gain new appreciation for it and work hard to get back there !!!! I want to get back to 160,,, I know I can do it with your help !!

 

 

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Its Been a While 3 yrs post Surgery

Nov 12, 2012

A lot of wonderful things have happened  I got married on 07/21/2012  I can't say its because of the RNY but the new confidence I have has helped me to start a new life.  I've managed to stay just 4 pounds off my original goal of 4 pounds as well  (164) 160 is my scary weight.    I will post more pictures.

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Need to ReFocus Need Encouragement

Nov 23, 2010

Ok its been 1 year since my surgery...I notice that now I can tolerte more foods and more amounts however I still try to eat those post op portions.  But I need to refocus...I was scared in the beginning to loose alot of weight @ one time for several reasons:
I was worried abou absorbson issues and vitamin intake
I was worried about excess skin
I was woried about loosing my shape because although I was big I had a nice figure
Last but not least. I didn't tell many people I was having RNY so if I failed people would think I just went on a crash diet that didn't work

But  finally reached the goal of loosing 100 pounds.   I still want to loose 17 more and according to my sugeron I can still loose but now it is more of an effort; not only to take it off but keep it off. That is my ultimate goal.  So I need all the encouragement I can get. 

Im back on my post op diet & protein intake
Back to working out every day.
Goal: WANT THESE 17 POUNDS to Go Away
 

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Today is my 1 YR Surgiversary !!!!! 10-28-10

Oct 28, 2010

Today is my 1 YR Surgiversary  !!!!! 10-28-10 If you would have asked me as I was waking up from surgery if I did the right thing...I would been like I am crazy...why did i do this but now I ask myself ...WHY did I weight so long.  This date will be memorable to me...like my date of birth, date of my baptism, dates of my relatives birthdays.  My only worry is I have not lost 100 pounds yet but know as long as I keep up with my protein, working out and liquids I will loose and get to my goal.  In the meantime going from a size 22/24 to size 8/10 is a wonderful thing.  But its more than that...its Being able to go up the stairs 2 at a time all the time is a huge blessing.  Being able to tie myshoes or paint my toenails without loosing oxygen is wonderful.  These are feelings that I never want to loose so I will cherish it by being kind to my pouch.  Now that I'm a year out it is my goal to reach my goal and not put back on the weight...with the support of OH I know I can do it.   
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My Special ThankYou's - My Grammy's OCARS, EMMY's & Tony Awards

Oct 17, 2010

My OH community has been fanominal to me but I would be remissed if  I did not give a special thank you to those who I have bonded with during this process

SARA's New Life
NAVYTOWN MOM
CAKES
OneSingah
The Butterfly
Dreamgirl 119

Again everyone of my OHFriends and Community have been helpful to me and each and everyone of you all special to me and I say THANK YOU ALL...but these people have let me VENT, Kicked my Butt when I needed it and made me smile; therefore you get my GRAMMY, EMMY, TONY, OSCAR and every award there is...Lets keep loosing so we can all be winners!!!  

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Almost 1 yr Out...still have not lost 100 Pounds

Oct 17, 2010

Currently now I am 2 wks from my 1 year anniversary and I am 3 pounds from reaching 100.  I hope I get to that before 10/28/10.  I'm trying hard but I'm also battling my cravings.  I do so well during the week but the weekends is where I loose it.  Also in this economy I have not been able to keep up with purchasing all of the protein products I need to build muscle and burn fat.  So I'm eating my protein vs. doing my shakes and that make me scared.  My ultimate goal is to weight between 147 - 155 and no bigger.  I hope I can reach it but usually if If you have not reached the goal in the year it may not be able to be achieved and that makes me scared too....but Im still willing to try.  I'm still going to work out 5 days a week and watch my diet. 

On the upside my skin has done remarkable well post surgery which was one of my worries initially.  I still have some of my boobs in a sense.  I've gone from a 44DDD to 36DD my waist is smaller than my boobs and hips so now my weight is proportion to my body.  I still have a full face but although I made a video for a work project and when I watched it I did not recognize myself because my face changed so much.  I don't want this surgery, this tool, this gift to be all for nough...I want to make it my goal to reach my goal and to not gain or be than 155 pounds.  This will show that I appreciate the gift I have been given. It is also important to visit this sight @ least 2x a week.  Initially this was my lifeline my OH community and I have not been as active on it as I Should so I need to start not only receive more encouragement but also Give more encouragement as well.  This will also keep me focused.
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Re direction - Re Foucs Getting Back on TRACK

Oct 03, 2010

yes...this process has been harder than I though.  Anyone who said this process was the easy way out they are WRONG.  This process is hard.  So I have lost 96 pounds so far...trying to get to 100 pounds by 1 year anniversary.  In order to do that I have to REDirect and ReFocus.  PROTEIN, PROTEIN, PROTEIN, Exercise Exercise,Exercise....no more snacking and staying on track.  I went back and read some of my old blogs and how focus I was in the beginning.  I don't want to loose that drive because if I do then I'll gain the weight back.  I want to stay ever conscience of this pouch I have and to be kind to it with every morsel of food that I eat.  True I can hold more but I have to also listen to the sign when my stomach tells me ENOUGH....also there is the struggle with my eyes again..just cause I see it I want it and the surgery does NOT cure that.  That starts in the mind.  Thankfully I still cannot eat any sweets and have not tried any alcohol yet so that should keep my weight down .  I just want to get to my eventually goal of 145 and weigh no more than 152.  IF I can accomplish this then I will be successful...but how will it start or should I say finish...Re direction - Re Foucs  Getting Back on TRACK
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Milestones & Setbacks

Sep 06, 2010

Milestones & Setbacks…   Although I have not reached the century club I am in onderland…I can’t wait until I get to the century club (setback).  My ultimate goal is to be 145 although others have told me that I would be too skinny @ 145 but I know it is the BEST thing for me.   I will be the person who I know I am inside and would be my best and healthiest. But now my main goal is reaching the century club I am 4 pounds away and hope to reach it by the end of the month and by my 1 year anniversary I would like to have lost @ least 105 pounds. (Milestone)  I did get into one dress I saved for 17 years that was a HUGE milestone. I also have another dress that I have been saving for 20 years. It is my goal to take a picture in that dress. I also keep an old picture in my purse of when I was heavier so when I am tempted to eat I pull it out and look @ it to remind myself of who I was and who I don’t want to be. Although I knew I ate a lot in the past and that’s how I ended up needing RNY…now that I am able to tolerate foods I don’t want to over eat again. I’m getting back on track the way I did in the first few weeks of my RNY. PROTEIN, PROTEIN, PROTEIN, Exercise, Exercise, Exercise. 
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