Addiction

May 08, 2011

I am watching the reality TV show "addicted to food" and am kinda scared..two of the women on there had gastric bypass and they lost a ton of weight and gained much of it all back and now are at this weight loss facility working on their addiction.  It sooo upsets me because it makes me think "shit whats happens when I loose the weight and how do I maintain it?"  It is pretty scary!

I have been successful at loosing weight and gained much of it back and damn it, it scares the hell out of me!  Today I forget  how difficult the weight maintenance is, I know I don't need to focus on that now, but it is scary none-the-less.

I am proud of what I have accomplished this far and made some HUGE changes in my way of eating... but I am sensing my need to eat sugar and crave these things that I have not eaten in 6 months.. It could be "my time of month" but it could be that I am not dealing well with things and well food has been that solution.

I have also been eating later at night.  I "Feel" hungry and do not like the feeling so I want to eat. the food I am choosing is better than what I used to choose, but I need to get away from eating so late at night... OK this is something I need to focus on!

I CAN do this!

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