OkieAngel
Jan 5, 2007
Jan 05, 2007
Can you believe it's a whole new year? I am three months out as of today and have lost, approximately, 57 pounds. I've been stuck here for about two weeks. I'm okay with that because I know it happens but it's still really frustrating. I've been feeling really good. I don't have any problems getting anything down. I'm starting to feel kind of uncomfortable when people tell me how different I'm looking. It's silly but I kind of feel awkward when people put any attention on my appearance. I've always tried to maintain a half way decent appearance. (I mean, aside from the extra 100 lbs) Now, I don't want people to look at me. It's like they're just bringing attention to how bad I looked before. It makes me uncomfortable. I wish my husband would make a big deal out of it (he doesn't) and other people would not make such a big deal. I've even bought some clothes that are fitted so you can actually see my body. I guess, on some level, I do want the recognition or I'd still be wearing the giant t-shirts I've always worn. I guess it's kind of stupid to be complaining about something I've always thought I wanted. I guess it's just something I'm going to have to get used to because, hopefully, this is just the beginning!
Oct 22
Oct 22, 2006
Well, I am just not sure how I'm feeling. I'm very up and down. I'm physically exhausted moste of the time. The only food that goes down without heartburn is cottage cheese. Fortunately, I love that. I have some pureed stew and pureed curry. They went down okay but, pureed? Blech. I don't want to complain because, truth is, I've been especially fortunate. I've not had problems since the surgery. I feel like I'm in constant struggle with David. I don't know if he's depressed or I am. It's like neither one of us can say the right thing to the other. I know this is TMI but it doesn't help that we've been unable to have sex for 2 weeks since surgery. That's just not normal for us. I think both of us are a little frustrated. I think maybe he feels like he's doing everything. I'm just not sure what to do.
Oct 21, 2006
Oct 21, 2006
So, I wish I'd started doing this sooner. I had surgery on Oct 5, 2006. I didn't document any of the things leading up to surgery... now I wish I had. I didn't have any trouble with my insurance company. I was approved right away. I am two weeks and two days out from surgery and am feeling pretty good. I did battle some serious depression because I keep reading about all these people whose weight just flies right off. I'm not going to be one of those people, I guess. The doc told me it was because I don't have as much to lose as a lot of people who have this surgery. I hope they're right. I sure hope I didn't have this surgery for nothing. As of my two week appt, I had only lost 16 pounds from the week prior to surgery. I keep reading about all these people who say they lost that in their from week from surgery. I'd like to lose about 100 pounds. That would put me at 150. I cannot remember the last time I saw 150. Heck, at this point, I can't remember the last time I saw 200. So, I'm no longer weighing myself at all. I'll just wait until I go to the doc's office. That's hard for me. However, I'd gotten to where I was weighing 2 or 3 times a day. I'd go pee and jump on the scale to see if there was a change. I told my doc this and they said, "Put the scales away." I've done that. I'm no longer weighing and I feel much better. So, now I'm just hoping I start seeing change in my clothes.
