Emotions of a Loser

May 25, 2008

I know I have not posted in about 2 months and I am sorry to you all (and myself for that).  Wow near 70 pounds...gone.  Its hard to believe.  Its also in a way discouraging to look in the mirror and STILL not see the me I want to become again.  Thats really rough some days to deal with.  I have a new love in my life though and she loves me for who I am and is working hard with me in my WL journey.  That helps a lot too.  To those of you who have not had surgery yet, there is a LOT of emotions involved in this process.  You need the support of your friends and family on this site, since we are like a family.  I could not have made it through without my friends on here thats for damned sure. 

As for eating, I am trying a few new things each week.  Still not eating a lot at one sitting, which is good but also weird at the same time.  Glad that I can finally drink water like a camel and dont have to sip sip sip no more lol.  I probably eat a little too much tortillas but it sure beats the alternative (bread).  Well I am going to go this Tuesday (the 27th) and weigh again at Bailey.  Will update with new totals.  Hopefully I am finally below 350....my first major goal I set for myself.  Talk to you all soon.

Never thought I would hate Oklahoma storms

Mar 31, 2008

Today I was so restless waiting for the storms to end.  I have been home a couple of days and wanted to walk today so badly.  Finally the storms passed through and I was able to get out and walk some.  Not too much pain today, just getting "bored" with this liquid diet.

Almost here

Mar 26, 2008

Well tomorrow is the big day.  Cant believe it is finally here.  I am so ready to get on with my new life.  This liquid diet sucks but the end results will so be worth it.  Will post again Friday or Saturday.  See ya'll on the other side.

First Visit with the Doc

Feb 01, 2008

I had my first visit with Dr. Gorospe yesterday morning.  Everything went extremely well and I was able to talk with him for a good amount of time about my future.  I was so excited to hear from him that 220 was a reasonable goal to set.  I have not been that size since shortly after high school, and would be very comfortable with that size for the rest of my life.  I now need to do my testing and should be able to get a mid to late March surgery date.  Its getting close.....

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